A Bedroom Dom

My final post

2012-01-30T09:55:00.000-08:00

To all my readers, I want to say thank you for being loyal and wonderful.

I have decided to close this blog because it no longer serves any purpose for me. I have my answer--a woman will not become submissive even with patience, training and gentle guidance.

Rather than explore this area any further and jeopardize my marriage, I have decided what is best for me and my relationship with lizard is to close down my blog and disappear back into the real world. I'll be closing down in a week.

Thanks again to all for your support, and I wish every one of you kinky Masters and sluts a wonderful life!

A Bedroom Dom

Rope

2011-12-01T10:38:00.001-08:00

Last night I tied My lizard up with a 35 foot Japanese silk rope. I have never tied her body up before, though I often strap her arms to the bed post before we make love, or her hands above her head in handcuffs, and sometimes her feet as well. But have never actually used a rope to wrap around and tie up her body.

I had bought this rope months ago and used it once to tie her hands and feet to the bed, never around her body. I wasn't quite sure how she would react, because some things she likes, and some she doesn't.

So I told her Wednesday would be our slave night, and ordered her to take her clothes off and remove her earrings, and put her collar on (which I had to tell her twice).

Then I took a shower while she waited for Me. I took out the rope and started by wrapping it around her torso just above her breasts. "What are you doing," she asked.

"Tying you up," I told her and continued to wrap. "And call me sir!"

I had never done this before and was hoping it would work out.

I wrapped the rope twice above her breasts, under her arms each time, then looped it over her shoulders, and brought it back down under her breasts. I wrapped it around her body two more times, under her arms again, then looped it over her shoulders again, this time crossing the two strands. I couldn't tighten it as much as I wold have liked--she has a very low pain tolerance, but still her breasts were jutting out nicely, and they are quite large.

Next I started to wrap the rope around her whole body including her arms, and wrapped it all the way down to her waist where I ran out of rope.

I tied the two ends together, and cuffed her hands in front of her. Then I strapped her legs in cuffs to the two posts at the foot end of the bed, spreading her legs out nicely. She lay there helpless on her back.

I felt her pussy and it was quite wet. "Good girl."

I sucked and licked at her nipples, then brought My hard cock up to her face and pushed it in. As she sucked and licked it, I told her "now get ready, I'm pushing it all the way in," and I grabbed her hair and pushed the head of My cock down her throat and held it there for a second.

She kept licking and sucking My cock for a while until I decided it was time for a good fucking.

I mounted her and started immediately pounding her wet cunt with My hard cock. Her hands were getting in My way, so I uncuffed them, though she was still all wrapped up and couldn't move her arms. I fucked her hard for a few more minutes until she started making whimpering noises.

I pushed her head down onto the bed and held My other hand over her throat as she continued to whimper, threw her head back, and started getting all red. I was grunting now. when i know she is close to orgasm, I start turning more and more animalistic.

Then, Bang! She exploded! A big orgasm that lasted a long long time. She groaned out loud several times, louder than usual, and longer too. As she came I kept fucking her hard. Since she does not allow Me to pull her nipples hard, I had to leave the next part up to My imagination. I imagined pulling and twisting her nipples, and calling her a dirty little fuck whore as I kept pumping in and out of her. Soon I couldn't take it any more either and I shot My hot load inside her and collapsed on top of her.

And then we rested, she laying aside My body, her head on My chest. I always love that moment, right after a nice play session, just lying there enjoying each other's company.

She told Me afterward what a good lover I am, so I guess the rope will become another part of My ratgher limited, yet still ample, repertoire!

Her Collar and Leash

2011-11-15T14:36:00.001-08:00

One Sunday of this week, my lizard and I had a little fun with a collar from Eden Fantasys. As my regular readers know, lizard accepts my odd bedroom behavior,enjoys some of it, but has some pretty strict limits. Collars with leashes attached are not one of our usual toys, so I wasn't sure how she would respond. She does wear a collar when I tell her to, though she has told me before she only wears it because I like it.

So I surprised her as I always do. She never knows in advance what crazy toy I might suddenly produce. We got into bed and I pulled out the collar and leash. No reaction. That's pretty typical. She doesn't frown or flinch, doesn't often complain, just kind of looks over whatever new sex toy her crazy husband brought home this time.

I put the collar on her, ring in front, leashed it and pulled her head over to the side of the bed away from the headboard (where our feet go). Her immediate first reaction was she felt the collar was too uncomfortably wide and bugged her neck, but she seemed to get used to it.

I pushed my cock in her mouth and held the leash tight so she couldn't pull away until she gagged a little. That's what collars are for anyway, isn't it? Then I tied the leash to the bed frame so her head couldn't pull away, and as she got on her hands and knees, I cuffed her ankles in the handcuffs we have on the headboard.

And I began to spank her. As usual, I couldn't really get her ass reddened before she started to whine. When she whines I often wish I could just slap her harder, but that, alas, would probably be considered spousal abuse under the circumstances. Non-consensual in the real sense of the word, not the D/s sense. Then I shoved my fingers into her juicy wet cunt. I fucked her from behind on all fours, straddling her legs and forcing my cock up into her cunt, even though it was a bit tough with her legs together the way they were. I had to spread her knees and I think it was uncomfortable for her. (Though she would never say if it was)

After I slammed her from behind for a few minutes, I uncuffed her ankles, untied her collar and took it off her. I turned the collar around so the ring was in the back. We moved her head to the headboard, and I tied the leash to the bed frame near the headboard, on a very short leash so she couldn't raise her head up. Then I cuffed her hands over her head. I love that position, there is something so sexy about a woman whose hands are cuffed above her head. don't get me wrong, I like a four poster tie-up too with all four limbs, but that over the head thing is just really sexy.

And then, of course, I pushed my way in as she lay on her back and started fucking her hard. I worked up a good sweat by pounding her for at least ten minutes, then decided to take the cuffs and collar off. She has had trouble coming while restrained these last few days for some reason. Once I freed her, though she came for me fairly quickly, and since I was ready, I pumped my load up inside her at the same time.

Overall we had another one of our wonderful nights, but the collar and leash probably won't be a regular part of my repertoire with lizard. First, it was somewhat uncomfortable for her. Then there is the problem that there's just not that many uses we could get out of it. I can't have her crawling around the house in her leash, after all. She deoesn't go in for that sort of thing.

D/s and Christianity

2011-11-14T11:58:00.001-08:00

This is not the post you are thinking. I have recently been reading some posts where blog authors compared D/s and the need for it (from either side) to being homosexual. As in its born into you.

I'm not sure it was born into me. If it was I didn't realize until recently. As I was sitting in church this Sunday, I began to make a different connection. The need I see in some fellow church goers is very similar to the need I feel to Dominate. You believe in something you can't feel or see or know about because it doesn't have a body. You just know it's right. Some people raise their hands and rock back and forth in church. I don't. In fact, when they talk about the personal relationship with Jesus, which is a big tenet of our church, I feel nothing. He's invisible and perhaps even imaginary. I'm an agnostic, you might say, although more accurately I'm a believer in god, I just can't define god. It's not a person with me, though, it's more of a force.

But then I see the passion ignited in others when they talk about Jesus. He is the focus of their lives. They judge everything they do by asking whether it glorifies Jesus, whether they are following his Word. They hang onto every syllable of the Bible to learn how to live better lives. I am not critical of this passion. It is simply an observation. I feel none of it, however, for Christ.

When I think about Domination and submission, though, there is a certain passion for it and naturalness to it that makes me feel like it belongs to me, and I to it. The same way many Christians feel that Jesus is their best friend.

This even though I have had little chance to develop skills as a Master. But there is a part of me that longs to take control of another. I had never heard of D/s though I knew about BDSM until two years ago. I was searching something (??), I can't remember exactly what, when I came upon a blog which enthralled and ensared me. I waited pateiently for the author to put up new posts. I began to read others. When I first read about D/s almost two years ago, it was like a thunderbolt, it was like an arrow shot through my heart, it was like...being born again!

The blog where I first learned about D/s was very unrealistic. In fact, the author even posted an image of himself as Christ with a woman, presumably Mary Magdalene, at his feet. He drew some criticism for likening himself to Jesus Christ.

He was totally into micromanaging every little step of his submissive's life in a way that even to my green eye seemed unsustainable, and apparently was. He would make her walk two steps behind him, always to his right, he would make her go through a very elaborate ritual every night before bed, I just remember he had so many requirements that I was sure of two things. First, that I couldn't sustain what he had going. Second, that I would love something similar, though on my own terms. Without all the micromanagement.

For me what was significant was the concept that people really do live this way and not just dream about it. Maybe like some poor native who learns about Christ and falls to the ground overwhelmed in a pile of emotions.

Submissives versus Submission

2011-11-11T08:32:00.001-08:00

I had a sudden realization this morning.

It started when I came back into our bedroom after breakfast. lizard always sleeps in, and after I ate I went back to our room and was feeling horny, so I laid down behind her and started poking my hard cock between her legs. She woke up to my cock pushing up against her pussy.

I rolled her onto her back and pushed in hard, then fucked away at her as she lay there half asleep. I cam pretty quickly, because I wanted to. Then we kissed for a while, I thanked her for being such a good girl, and I got up and went about my business.

She did not complain. That would be enough for most men, wouldn't it? But that's another topic altogether.

I realized after I got in the shower, my wife will submit, but she is absolutely not submissive. When I use submissive I mean you guys, the bloggers, the ones who crave and need to submit to someone. The treasured. The few.

lizard will never complain unless I actually try to inflict pain on her. I can understand that. If pain has no pleasure, why would you allow someone to hurt you? ? It's almost like torture at that point. But she does have want our marriage to work, so to that end she will do a lot of what I ask, as long as it doesn't hurt her.

I told her to wear her collar last night. When I asked her if she liked it, she told me frankly, "no, I just wear it because you like it." Well. Doesn't mean much then, does it?

Fortunately, when I talk to her tonight and tell her i want to maintain the fantasy that I am the Master in the bedroom, she will understand, and she will act like a good submissive, but I know it's just an act. I have read the same thing on the blogs of several others who have a similar situation--a spouse who is simply not at the same level, and I sympathize with and appreciate them very much , because we are like brothers and sisters in this struggle. You guys know who you are.

There is a huge difference between pleasing your spouse because you think it will make the marriage better and that's an important goal in your life, and craving submission and domination, craving the feeling of having someone master you, needing it so badly that you feel like you'll fall apart without it.

I am not sad about this. I did consider giving up my blog at one point because I know the more I read about others, the more it increases my desire to have the same, and so I'd probably be better off simply going away, but I don't want to.

I'll just have to live with my bedroom fantasy domination (do I have to change my blog name again??--A Bedroom Fantasy Dom???), and get my voyeuristic thrills reading about your exploits.

So blog on! And happy 11/11/11 Day!

Do Doms Flirt?

2011-11-09T11:07:00.000-08:00

I notice on lot of submissive websites many subs are very flirtatious. A friend recently told me he did not think Doms were flirtatious. I know, despite the fact I am married, I have left flirtatious comments for several subs. I also make it clear on my blog I am dedicated to my lizard and not interested in any type of online relationship, but I wonder what others think.

Do Doms flirt?

A New Blog Title

2011-11-09T10:16:00.001-08:00

I am changing my blog title, but I'll still be around. Please look for A Bedroom Dom in the future.

Sudden Needs

2011-11-08T15:10:00.000-08:00

A reader recently asked me a thought provoking question. She asked how it was i suddenly became aware of a need to be Dominant at the age of 50, and how it was possible i had never felt the need before that. I had no logical answer. Indeed, i had no illogical answer either. I was, in short, stumped.

Now I am trying to determine what happened, and curious to know whether others have had any kind of similar experience. I suppose if I looked back through my sex life, there has always been a thread of dominance in all my dealings with other women. I wold never have put up with someone wrapping their hands around my throat or trying to tie me up, and would always be the one "on top," not always literally but in terms of the dynamics. I loved to push my ex's head into the bed, for example, would always pin her arms down, and just generally always had the inclination.

Inclination turned to desire once I started reading blogs. That happened two years ago. You would think someone with a burning need would discover this world more quickly, but I didn't.

An now, in a sense, I'm paying the price for me late blooming. Although I love my lizard very much, I also would have liked to be able to express this now-dominant desire as an integral part of my relationship with her. when I last talked to her about it, she basically said "I didn't sign up for that at the beginning." And she's right. Damn it, she's absolutely right.

Readings from the Surrendered Wife, Part II

2011-11-02T11:54:00.000-07:00

We finished the first chapter of Surrendered Wife.   The chapter is called Respect the Man You Married By Listening to Him. It involves not dismissing, not criticizing, not nagging and simply accepting what your husband says and being respectful.

Lizard and I never fight. She does not nag, but mostly because she doesn't have to. If she asks me to do something around the house, I will do it. I'm a very energetic guy. Si it's a two way street.

She does not criticize me. In fact, when she talks about me to others, she is always very complimentary.

The one thing she has done, however, is completely dismissed my interest in D/s. This is against the precepts of the book. A fellow blogger friend of mine pointed this out to me, that lizard was being disrespectful by simply dismissing something that I felt so deeply.

We had a talk about this last night. Her first response was "when you met I never said I was interested in that." She has a valid point. Our relationship was absolutely not based on any understanding about D/s. That came to me later.

She then said she was afraid I would become unhappy because she was not interested in being submissive for me.    I assured her that was not the case, and it is not. I still love many of the good things about her. She is sweet and loving, she is very submissive in certain ways, but overall she believes man and woman should be equals.

Many of the points the author, Laura Doyle, talks about in Chapter I simply do not apply to our marriage. she talks a lot about the loss of intimacy that comes about because of a wife's constant nagging and putting her husband down.   While it is true that lizard often knows a better way to do things, she will never tell me how to do anything. She always asks, "would you like to know an easier way to do that?" I almost always say yes, because she has more experience dealing with house repairs, for example, than I do. If I like her suggestion, I use it. If I don't, she does not get upset.

In fact, that is possibly her best quality. She is never upset. She is always happy.

AS I think more about our relationship, I realize I have never felt a passionate love for lizard. I enjoy our sex together, and a I do love her, but not in a passionate crazy way. Though I am a passionate crazy lover! My love for her is more a respect, an ability to get along in all circumstances, a stable environment which is almost always a happy environment.

Maybe like a stranded man loves the rock he is stuck on.

Anyway, we will continue reading from the book even though I have officially released her from any out-of-the-bedroom obligations to surrender. I did remind her last night that I still want her to be mine in our sex life, and she has always been fine with that. And that's always been enough for me!

Hoping to Make a Comeback Soon

2011-11-02T11:35:00.000-07:00

My lizard is getting close to menopause. She has had a two week slow bleed period so we have had no fun action. I haven't completely given up, just nothing new to report!

Seismic Shift

2011-10-24T08:59:00.000-07:00

I have reached my limits with lizard. This weekend I told her I no longer wanted her to be my slave. Her response was "that's good." She then said, "it's not fair anyway." And followed up with "I'm glad you've gotten over that." Obviously, she had no interest in such a relationship, so there was not much point in continuing to push it. After two years, I had reached the end of that road.

Having said that, I will continue to detail our bedroom exploits here for the time being. She is still quite the purring kitten in the bedroom, as many of you have read regularly know. And I still have a collar and leash from Eden Fantasy to unleash on her. So I'll still keep lurking around and posting from time to time.

This is a really great and supportive community. I have received a lot of helpful advice from a lot of folks, and I appreciate all of it.

Her Good and Her Bad Sides Revealed

2011-10-19T10:46:00.000-07:00

This post may seem trivial to others, but to me it is important and I am seeking feedback from Doms and subbies on your thoughts.

First, my regular readers know I have no formal commitment from lizard, and she is not exactly the most naturally submissive woman in the world. Having said that, regular readers also know that when it comes to steamy hot sex, I am largely in control.

This weekend two events took place that gave me some insight into my lizard's submissive and her not-so-submissive sides.

On Friday night our friend sponsored a Bunco tournament, and we went to support his soccer club. After the game was over, we were sitting at our Bunco table when my lizard asked me to get her a cupcake. I told her no, and also told her, "can you fill my beer when you get your cupcake?" There were two other people sitting at our table, one a young teenage boy who probably was a soccer player. Anyway, he said loudly, "she won't get you the beer." I know my lizard heard him. I responded so she could hear, "yes she will." And that was that. I then waited. And she went, and she filled my beer and got her cupcake.

That may seem like a trivial thing to some, but afterward she never complained, never criticized, and I don't think she was in the least bothered by it. Nor did it turn her on.

The second event was on Sunday. We were getting ready for church (I could go into a whole post on that) and she asked me "do you think this dress is ok for church?" No, I told her, I think it is too revealing. It had a somewhat low front to it and showed her ample cleavage. She wore the dress anyway. I told her that was exact the sort of thing she was NOT supposed to do under the relationship I wanted with her. I told her I would expect her to submit to my decisions if we had the D/s dynamic I was seeking. She simply said what she often says, "that's not fair."

Ok, it may not be fair, but it's what I want.

So tell me, what are your thoughts about this?

On a different note, we had another night of very hot sex last night as I told her she could not cum without my permission, and she was not allowed to ask me if she could cum. She got very whiny about ten minutes in. I told her "be a good girl." She was still squirming and whining, and so I gently patted my hand against her face, maybe you could call it a gentle slap, and she stopped whining (though she continued to squirm around). When she finally came, it was another blockbuster orgasm, though most of them are. So overall I was pleased.

Next up: Surrendered Wife, Part II.

Not What I Would Expect

2011-10-18T13:39:00.000-07:00

This post may disappoint some of you hardcore spankos out there. It involves very little spanking and no pain. But wow! Was it good!

Last night I told my lizard to strip, and then put her collar on. She did so obediently and laid in bed waiting for me to shower. Once i was done, we read from the Surrendered Wife (more on that later in the week). After we talked about what we had read, we started making out. Though I gently spanked her ass as we kissed, there was no rough play last night. I am mixing in more gentle nights with the rough.

Soon I was mounting her. The only command I gave her was "don't come until I tell you to." She obediently agreed. I started to slow-fuck her, pushing my cock half way up her pussy, then slowly, very slowly backing it out again, then thrusting all the way in, still slow and gentle. I kept pumping like that for a few minutes. I can't describe how good her wet pussy felt surrounding my hard cock. I told her how good it was. I told her she was a good girl. I looked in her eyes.

"You'll come when Master tells you to," I told her. "Yes, sir," her meek reply, "I want to cum when you tell me."

I kept slowly thrusting my cock in and out, soaking in every moment of the sensual feeling of her pussy. She soon asked, "can I come now?" "No, my good girl, you have to wait until Master tells you."

Then later, I ask her, "what are you waiting for?" "Until you tell me, sir."

She asked again two more times, yest I continued to slowly fuck her for another fifteen minutes, as she bucked her hips up and down and greedily tried to swallow up as much as my cock as she could. A few times I buried my whole cock inside and slowly moved my hips around, grinding my whole cock inside her womb. I was telling her how good her cunt felt the whole time, how she was mine to use how I wanted, how much I love her. She was going crazy.

Then after feeling the hot sensation of her cunt rubbing against my cockskin over and over, slowly and sensually, I gave her permission. "You can come now."

Within twenty seconds she started moaning loudly, feeling the waves crest over her submissive body and coming on her Master's command. What a hot lovely feeling. My cock started building up,. It almost hurt to feel the semen swell inside my cock until it burst through and squirted inside her hot hole, filling her with wet sticky sperm.

Just the simple act of having her under my control got my cock so hot lovemaking felt better than I can remember for a long time. Yes, I do love smacking her around and pinching her nipples and shoving her head against the bed. But the exercise of raw power in the calm and measured rhythm of a hot fuck is just as good any day.

I will continue for the next few nights to make her wait for her orgasms until I tell her. Perhaps even longer. We'll just have to see how that goes.

We'll Start With the Hot Sex

2011-10-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

On Sunday night I gave lizard her usual monthly one hour massage. We had, of course, lit plenty of candles and put on some relaxing music. Then, after we both showered, I put her double blindfold on. I like to be doubly sure she can't see anything. I got on the bed and had her crawl on. As she was there on all fours, I pushed my cock up to her mouth. She loves to suck my cock, so I let her have her way with it for a few minutes, pushing it up to the hilt a few times.

Then I cuffed her to the bedpost. I told her to lie on her stomach and I got the (rubber) flogger and a dildo out. I began to gently flog her ass. I turned on the vibrating dildo and shoved it into her cunt, all the way up, and began to work it with my right hand as I kept slapping her ass with the flogger, increasing the intensity with each passing minute. I also rubbed my cock up against her ass so she would feel how hard I was.

I ordered her to get up on all fours again, and spread her ass cheeks out and pushed my thumb up against her asshole. Then I started flogging her harder. I pulled out the dildo and replaced it with my hard cock, sliding up to the point where my pubic bone was against her ass. I fucked her slowly while continuing to beat on her ass with the flogger. After a few minutes, she bent the front of her body down against the bed, even more submissive, and I shoved the back of her head into the bed as I kept working on her. She "ouched" a few times, and each time I gently rubbed her ass cheeks, then went back to flogging her. She told me later the ouches were for when the flogger struck her pussy-not my intention, but I'm glad anyway. She needs to start taking some pain. I made her count to five as I administered the last five swats, each time getting a little more intense. She meekly counted out each stroke like a good girl. She took more than usual, but that's where I have been heading these last few weeks, inspired by reading some of your blogs, one blogger in particular whose name shall remain anonymous.

Her nipples were also still sore from Thursday night when I had pinched and twisted them hard while fucking her.

Anyway, I flipped her over onto her back, got out some KY Jelly and slipped a finger up her ass, then fucked her hard while she lay on her back cuffed and blindfolded. I put my other hand over her throat and pressed down gently, pushed my cock all the way up inside her, and heard her breathing getting faster almost immediately. I fucked her ass with my finger and her pussy with my cock, while I kept pushing down on her throat with my other hand. What a great feeling to feel your cock rub against a finger in the ass!

She came deep and long as I kept stroking her with my erection. I could feel my cum swelling in my hardened aching cock, until as she moaned and pushed her head back I slammed several hot loads of my fuckseed deep inside her pulsing pussy.

Aaah, life is good. Inside the bedroom anyway.

Tomorrow I will blog about two interesting developments from over the weekend, one which shows her submission and the other which shows her complete lack of it, from outside the bedroom. Maybe I'll change the name of this blog to Outside the Bedroom, A Master's Work In Progress!

But inside the bedroom, I am Master.

How Many Of You Like Candles?

2011-10-14T08:51:00.000-07:00

Okay, I can almost hear all those kinky minds out there whirring and purring thinking this post will be about hot wax play. But it isn't. It's about romance.

When lizard and I play, which is nearly every night (periods excepted) I like to have candles as our only illumination. I think it sets an awesome mood. We have a candle holder with three large candles on it and also two long stemmed candle holders we put on the floor, then a number of others we can use as well. Almost every time we have sex--vanilla or kinky--I prefer candleight.

This brings up several questions in my own mind. Baby Girl recently blogged about routines. We have a routine of lighting candles. I like it, but I get her point too. Routines are made to be broken. Lately I have been very much into routine, not only in the bedroom but in my own life. I have always been a list maker and planner, and go through phases where I am very disciplined, then, as now, phases where I am less so. But still many of the routines continue. This takes great discipline.

The other question I have is whether most Doms have a romantic side. I am guessing and hoping the answer is a resounding yes.

Last night I took a little bit of advantage of my poor horny lizard. Since learning that her tolerance for pain goes way up when my cock is buried deep inside her, I have begun to push her limits of pain while in that very comfortable place. Last night I pulled and twisted her nipples. When we are not having sex, she has NO tolerance for nipple pain. She doesn't even like wearing the beginner nipple clips I got her. But once I started stroking with my cock, though she did meekly protest, I continued yanking and pulling and never got a "stop." I also choked her when she was heating up, pushing her over the edge. I choked harder than usual too.

After we both had intense orgasms, she told me "you know how to do everything right." I asked, "you like everything I do, don't you?" She responded, "everything except when you hurt me."

So there you have it.

Readings From the Surrendered Wife Part I

2011-10-12T09:07:00.000-07:00

Last night we read some of the introduction to the Surrendered Wife. Although the book is specifically geared toward saving a failing marriage and we are nowhere near that situation, there are many relevant points that I like in the book.

After reading from the introduction, we talked about it. lizard's first response was "I suck your cock, don't I?" I praised her for her submissiveness and willingness to serve me in bed. Then she says she feels like she already does everything I want. Far from it. But it was god to know she is concerned about making sure I'm happy. I told her she was not very submissive at all out of bed, but that I do very much appreciate her submissiveness in bed.

Her next comment was one I should have followed up on and perhaps tonight we will. She said "you are just going to make yourself unhappy thinking about this stuff." I told her I wasn't unhappy and was not going to make myself unhappy, nut I missed the golden opportunity of asking her why she thought that. Hopefully we can pick that up again tonight.

I'm glad we are putting this on the table. I had been looking for a way to open discussions with her, but most of the literature in this area involves BDSM, and although that's an interest of mine, I'm much more interested in power.

What's really weird to me is how submissive she is in bed, but in other realms totally the mother and wanting control. The ideas in the book are so foreign to her that she can't even yet see how she is not applying them.

I will report on our progress as we continue to read through the book.

This morning we had a delightful early morning fuck. I woke up horny, her period is ending, and I pushed in from behind, then rolled her over and cuffed her hands above her head, and choked her as I thrust my cock inside her very wet pussy until she let out a wheezy (because my hands were on her throat) purring roar. I came only a minute later. Quick and hot.

Quick Update

2011-10-11T09:15:00.000-07:00

Hello blogmates. I've been out of the office almost all last week and in meetings all day yesterday, so not much time to blog. My lizard has been on her period and we don';t have sex during her period , not because of the mess but for other personal reasons. Anyway, no sex means no dominance, though we are still talking about it. She has been particularly unsubmissive in the last ten days or so. I'm not sure if that's related to her period or not.

Hopefully I'll have some hot and spicy posts in the upcoming days.

It seems that we are destined to be a vanilla couple with a kinky D/s bedroom dynamic. That would not be the worst thing in the world. I'm not really sure what else to try at this point, other than continuing through the Surrendered Wife book that we have now started.

The Glass Dildo

2011-09-29T09:35:00.000-07:00

I have been able to try out a number of new toys, thanks to Eden Fantasys' wonderful associates program, and have yet to find a toy my lizard won't accept. I know what she doesn't like (anal things, for example) and stay away from those things. My most recent choice was a glass dildo. Though Eden Fantasys has many different kinds of dildos, I have always had a fascination with glass dildos though have never had any reason, before now that is, to actually try one out.

We started by my lizard putting a new outfit I had bought her from Flirty or Dirty, seen below (on a model, not my lizard of course).

I love the way the mesh presses against her amble breasts. The crotch is open as well, though it did tend to squeeze her pussy hole closed, and we had to remove it later. She also wore her collar.

First, as we began our lovemaking, I stroked my sweetheart gently all up and down her front, across her breasts, making her nipples stand out, up and down her thighs, across her belly, everywhere. Then we made out for a few minutes, and I felt her pussy. It was wetter than usual. I pushed my finger inside and tasted her love juice several times, sort of like taking a temperature. Delicious!

Then I turned her on her back. I have recently discovered that if I push my finger in her cunt while I spank her, she can take more pain. Since I like to push her boundaries, my finger quickly found its way inside her. But after a few not-so-hard spanks, I moved on to the flogger. I have a very tame beginner's flogger with small rubber strips, but last night I used it with more force than usual. Though she winced a few times, she didn't try to stop me. She was bucking around with her hips against my finger that was working her hot fuckhole, and she didn't seem to mind the flogging entirely.

After a few hard swats, I turned her over and put the blindfold on, then cuffed her wrists to the bedposts. I love making my lizard helpless like that, and love to blindfold her. I called her good girl a bunch of times, which helps get her into that submissive mood, and she was a good girl!

Then I pulled out the Whartenburg Wheel and used it on her inner thighs and even across her pussy lips. That got her flexing her hips up in the air, she was practically screaming for my cock. And my cock was getting rock hard as always when I see my sweet helpless girl squirming around. "You're my little slut, aren't you baby?" "Yes, sir," she says obediently. Good girl.

I tell her I need to go get something now. I had earlier in the evening put the glass dildo in the refrigerator just to enhance the experience. I leave the room as she is lying helpless in the bed. I am wondering if she feels at all uncomfortable. After all, I could be doing anything, getting another woman, leaving her there for hours--she really has no idea because I won't tell her. When she asks I just say, "I'll be back soon, my love, don't worry."

I come right back with a cold glass dildo in my hand. Though she is quite wet, I lube it up with some KY to insert it more easily. The dildo has two functional ends, one with a cockhead design and the other made sort of like anal beads--a series of three beads, each a little larger than the other. I decide to go with that end, and with my lizard clueless and blindfolded, I start to push the cold glass dildo into her hot pussy. She gasps slightly as I push into the third bead, then start to work it in and out of her desperate pussy. I know she wants me to fuck her so bad, but not yet.

I move my cock up to her mouth, and as I work the dildo in and out I push my erection into her mouth. She greedily takes it in, sucking it all the way down a few times until she almost chokes. She is getting so good at cocksucking it's hard for me to believe. "Such a good girl," I tell her, "you make your daddy very hard." Then "you suck my cock so good, baby, you know how to make your daddy feel so good." My cock is growing hard as I write this just thinking abut her beautiful mouth sucking me all the way and down her throat until she almost chokes. MMmmmm.

In the meantime, she is blindfolded and I keep fucking her pussy with the glass dildo, another dream come true. It has lost it's coldness as I turn it around and push the cockhead side inside her. She really responds to that end, liking it much more than the beads. She still hasn't seen what I pushed inside her and doesn't ask anything about it, just accepts what comes her way like a good girl. I wouldn't tell her anyway. I know she is getting ever more desperate for daddy's cock, so after a while I remove the dildo.

I push her legs apart and mount her, thrusting my cock deep inside her womb. I can still feel the coolness from the dildo, and it feels very nice. I thrust all the way inside her, grinding my big hard cock up to her cervix and beyond. She lays back moaning and squirming her hot little fuckbox around, making my dick feel so engorged that I want to cum quickly now.

And she does. With a loud moaning explosion, she cums hard and long as usual. She is gasping and moaning, which also pushes me right over the edge and I shoot hot loads of goo into her deep hot womb. After I squirt several hot intense shots of cum inside my girl, and she too is done, I collapse onto her as I often do. We are sweaty and cum drips from her pussy onto the bedsheets as we lay in ecstasy, petting and rubbing, holding each other tightly and saying sweet nothings to each other. Afterplay is critical in my playbook.

Aaah, yes, last night was another hot lovemaking night, and thanks to Eden Fantasys' awesome sex toys, my lizard and I have been able to embark on several new adventures, and I've been able to tell some hot erotic stories--dreams come true!!

I asked her afterward if she liked the dildo, and she said it was fine. She likes just about everything I do though, so I wasn't surprised.

I realize my lover is very submissive. She always wants to please me, even outside the bedroom. There are still some things we need to work on, of course, every relationship has to keep moving forward, but overall I am so happy with my sweet lizard! We never fight, she never nags me, we have a great time with each other-I am really spoiled and I realize it now. I just want to be more spoiled by having her submit to me completely. That day will come soon enough!

She Loves Spanking

2011-09-28T10:27:00.000-07:00

The other night as we were laying in bed, I was playfully spanking my lizard. I asked her if she liked spanking. "I love it," she said enthusiastically. Not sure how serious she was (she rarely kids about anything), I asked her "honestly?" Yes, she repreated, I love it.

Last night we started on Surrendered Wife, the groundbreaking book by Lauar Doyle. We will be reading it from time to time. It will help me explain what I want in terms she can relate to. We had a bnice talk last night about what I want from her.

Exposed!

2011-09-25T16:07:00.000-07:00

Last Thursday and Friday I had to go out of town for business, and my lizard came with me. We got home Friday afternoon at about 4:00 pm. We had eaten a big dinner Thursday night and neither of us wanted to have sex, so we skipped a night. By Friday afternoon I was so horny, almost as soon as we got home I had to start undressing my lizard.

I should back up here and tell you about our tree. We had a big tree in front of our house, right outside our large bedroom window. The tree was probably 40 feet tall. When we were out of town, on September 9, a friend called to tell us a big part of the tree had crashed off onto the neighbor's roof. While we were still out of town, we had to take care of the situation, and decided to have the whole tree removed. So when we came home after our recent vacation, our big tree was gone. You could now see completely out our front bedroom window into the street.

We have these sunblocking screens on our windows so it's easier to see out then to see in. You pretty much have to be right up against the window to see inside. At least I hope.

Perhaps inspired by the new found feeling of vulnerability because of the tree being gone, I stripped my lizard right in front of our bedroom window. First I pulled her panties down while she was still wearing her dress, then pushed my cock against her ass. Then I stripped off the small undershirt she was wearing up top and exposed her breasts. I rubbed and played with them while she stood in front of the window, facing it. Eventually I took the whole dress off over her head and told her to put her hands on the dresser as I started fucking her from behind, in full view of the street in front of our house. We were both totally nude.

Even though we know you can't see in, it was still titillating and thrilling to fuck in front of the window. We had never done it before, though we have fucked on a balcony at a hotel and on the beach in Mexico, and I had masturbated her to orgasm twice on the way home from Vegas in our car, passing truckers as her top was down. But still, this was our home, our neighborhood.

After a few minutes of hard fucking, I told her to turn around, but I made her face the window and faced my back to the window, and fucked her face to face, still standing in front of our large bedroom window. I fucked her hard, tugging on her hair and slapping her ass once in a while, until she built up more and more. I could tell she was going to cum because her breathing started getting crazy.

I pulled my cock out as far as I could and thrust in as deep as could with each long and strong stroke of my hips. My long hard cock was thrusting all the way in and out of her, pushing her excited pussy to the edge as she looked outside into our yard and the street.

As I continued pounding her and slapping her ass, she finally toppled over the edge and started moaning loudly, cumming over and over as I kept fucking her hard with my engorged cock. After a few more strokes, it was my turn, and i shot my hot sperm inside her soaking cunt.

The mixed juices dribbled from her fuckhole down her thighs, and I laid her in bed. We laid next to each other and kissed, out tongues dancing and our lips sliding . All in all, a very nice afternoon.

I will be traveling most of the week and may not have a chance to check in again for a while, so I thought I would share this little adventure while I could!

Why Does Cumming Feel So Good?

2011-09-21T11:48:00.000-07:00

Ok, I know why from a biological perspective, but there is nothing even close to the feeling of cumming. Sneezing is the closest thing I've ever felt, but it doesn't quite capture the rapture. I'm not addicted, however, to sniffing pepper. They say heroin affects the same part of the brain, but I've never had any interest in trying that method of duplicating the wonderful warm feeling.

It's so odd because it only takes a few seconds (for a man) yest the feeling is so intense that I must get it almost every day. I wonder if men with lower sexual drives just don't get the same level of enjoyment from cumming. Like food. some folks don't have that trigger that tells them when they should stop eating. I have been very lucky not to have a problem with overeating, and I do attribute it to luck.

Just think about how this powerful feeling has influenced history. Apparently way back when people were first writing stuff down Homer wrote about how a guy named Paris stole Helen away from King Menelaus of Sparta. All for a few seconds of rapture. What's so interesting is that everybody knows Paris's name, but how of us remember Menelaus?

Ok, so that's fiction. But Bill Clinton risked his marriage, his presidency and in some ways the future of our country for a the same few seconds of pleasure. Think about that. There are so many other ways both great and small that the desire to shoot a few wads of goo have totally affected our own behaviors and the history of the world.

Online and Off to a New Start

2011-09-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

My lizard and I had a wonderful vacation on the east coast. I got some body surfing in and ate blue crabs by the dozen. Unfortunately, our sex life was slowed by the fact we were staying with my family, so our lovemaking was reduced to quiet vanilla humping. Our room at my mom's place at the beach was right next door to hers, separated only by a thin wall which had air vents into both rooms!

Last night was our first night alone for a while. First, I sucked on her nipples. I want to make them longer so I have been sucking them out whenever I have a chance, until I can buy her a snake bite kit. Then, my lizard dutifully sucked my cock at my command, and took it down her throat several times, a new trick she has learned to enjoy. That's real progress. She loves sucking my cock and licking and sucking my balls (I shave my scrotum). When she tried to come back up before I was ready, i ordered her back on my balls and to lick my perineum.

After a nice cock sucking, I cuffed her hands above her head and told her to get on her stomach. I gave her a mild spanking. Then I told her to get up on her knees with her ass in the air. She had on a nice pair of Luxxa (I hope you don't mind the link, but this website is awesome, though expensive--I also love their Lola Luna underwear ($50 a pair!!)) crotchless underwear, so I shoved a finger up her cunt and spanked her a bit more. Then I inserted my cock into her wet vagina. It's funny, because once I put my cock inside her, her pain threshold rises. I spanked her harder and harder until her ass reddened as I pushed my cock deep inside, then slowly slid it all the way out, over and over as I kept ramping up the spanks.

After her ass was nice and red I told her five more spanks on each cheek, something I do regularly now--I count down the last few spanks and then hit her harder. Next time I will make her count. So I gave her five hard whacks on each cheek. I told her "good girl" after each whack, and she was meek and submitted throughout.

Then I told her to roll onto her stomach, still cuffed. I pushed my cock all the way inside her. "I'm going to cum soon," she said, "is that ok?" Aaah, she is learning to be truly submissive. Sometimes I will tell her not to, and she always obeys. This time I said fine. But first I got out some KY jelly and lubed up my finger and pushed it into her asshole as I shoved my throbbing cock all the way up inside her. I love the feeling of having my cock inside her with my finger in her ass, and she was so far gone by that point, she didn't even care any more. Her tolerance definitely goes up when my cock is inside her. Usually she says she doesn't like things being put in her ass, but at this point she was so excited it didn't matter to her.

It wasn't long before she started to moan loudly. I could feel her pussy tighten around my cock. I love it when my cock feels like it has thickened up right before I cum. I don't know if any of the men out there have felt that, but her pussy tightened and my cock swelled and I couldn't hold back any longer--she felt so tight. As she continued to moan through wave after wave of pleasure, I could feel hot loads of sperm squirt through my hard cock and deep into her womb. After my cock was finished spraying its hot load inside her, I collapsed on top of her.

We lay there, my hand still rubbing her asshole, though my finger was now removed. I could feel her slick pussy juices and my hot cum running down onto my fingers as we both lay still, exhausted and satisfied.

In the bedroom, my lizard has become quite the dutiful submissive. I have recently purchased a book called the Surrendered Wife and we are going to start reading it soon. I doubt if she will ever come around outside the bedroom. I still have hope though. I am her Dom in the bedroom. She does as she is told. I will keep the love going and see if I can work out the other part, "normal" life. She is, at least, always willing to talk about things without getting upset.

It's nice to be back!

Vacation!!!

2011-09-07T08:50:00.000-07:00

See you all in about two weeks. Lizard and I are off to the beach in Ocean City, Maryland. I have family on the east coast, lots of brothers and sisters. I'll be back in the fray starting September 19.

Some New Reposnses From My Lizard: Addendum

2011-09-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

This morning my lizard responded with two e-mails to my questions about why she likes spanking. Here is her first response:

I like it that you are enjoying it. I do not like it when it hurts, and feels like when you rub me nicely or kiss etc.

Here is her second response sent only a few moments later:

I feel it is not healthy putting this much emphasis on this type of thing unless there is a problem.

She sent these responses just a few minutes ago. Last night I had talked to her about how I was disappointed that she did not answer the questions. She didn't say anything at the time, but obviously she thought about it and felt bad because she knew I took it seriously.

I can't say anything bad about the girl, she does like to try to please me, and by her answers I can see she gave it some thought, but simply doesn't feel comfortable with the whole process of answering questions in writing.

Now I have to think about how I respond. Comments are welcome.

Addendum: She has now sent me a third e-mail on the subject:

It's all fine but I don't think it needs to be discussed.

She is obviously very concerned about not wanting to respond, and how it affects me. She is still my sweetheart.

The Response

2011-08-31T14:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I sent my lizard an e-mail asking her to tell me whether and why she liked being spanked. It was intended to be the first in a series of e-mails asking different questions and getting honest and probative answers. Here is her first answer:

You are funny. I dont know why I like it part because you like it. Thats it!!

When I received her response, I actually called her. That's it???? I told her I expect more. She said "why do you want to ask me?" So now I need to follow up with her. Today she is visiting with her daughter at college and she won't be back until tomorrow afternoon. But I have e-mailed her today to express my disappointment and explain my motivation, and to try again.

So let's see what tomorrow brings...

Advice Taken

2011-08-30T13:41:00.000-07:00

Sky suggested I try writing my lizard to get her feelings about certain subjects, so I am starting on a new project where I will do that. Today I posted the following to give her the rules:

Re: A New Project

My dearest sweetest lizard:

I have a small project for you. It will take no more than ten minutes out of your day.

For the next few weeks, I am going to e-mail you some questions. I want you to take a few minutes to think about the questions, then write a nice expressive response. No “yes” or “no” answers.

Each time you write out a sentence, I want you to re-read it and dig a little deeper. For example, if I ask, “Do you like being tied up and why?”

You might answer, “yes, because it feels sexy.” Then I want you to ask yourself, “why does it feel sexy?” Maybe you will think “because I am vulnerable.” Write that too. Then I want you to ask yourself, why do I like feeling vulnerable? Etc…keep digging. No easy answers. And keep writing.

There are several rules to this game.

First, I want your answer on the same day, by e-mail. It can be in the afternoon if you would like.

Second, please take at least ten minutes to come up with an answer. No distractions, don’t be looking at other websites or texting or talking on the phone. Concentrate on the task at hand for ten minutes.

Third, I want you to be completely honest in all your responses.

Fourth, I want you to write at least ten sentences, and as I said, make sure you dig deep. No easy answers will be accepted. Push yourself to really think about these things.

We will start today with the first question as soon as you respond to this e-mail and acknowledge that you have received this e-mail and you are ready to begin.

Please make sure you respond respectfully.

Her first response was, as usual, a joke:

Not enough to do at work?

I sent her this back:

Plenty to do at work, but you must know how my love for you is more important than work.

Please acknowledge that you are prepared to do the task. Yes sir would be the appropriate response.

She then finally responded as I told her to (that's the only time she will obey--when I tell her exactly):

Yes sir.

That's better. Here was my next e-mail, sent only a few minutes ago:

QUESTION ONE

Please be honest. Do not be embarrassed or worry about what I will think of your answer. There are no right or wrong answers. Do not be ashamed.

What do you like most about being spanked and why? Is there anything you don’t like about it? What feelings do you have while you are being spanked?

Again, please make sure you give this some careful thought, and spend at least ten minutes focused only on giving an honest and complete answer. Then e-mail me the answer. I will not discuss it with you, but may ask further questions by e-mail.

A Little Talk

2011-08-29T08:59:00.000-07:00

Continuing on the subject of naturally submissive versus willing to please, I asked my lizard some questions last night to get more information from her about her likes and dislikes. I asked her if she preferred sex when she is tied up or when she is not. I like both equally she said. Although I don't like being tied up every time. Do you like sex better after spankings or without them? I like both equally. How about when I use the flogger? I like both equally. Do you like it better when you call me sir or not? I like both equally.

So I ask her, is there anything you really really like? I like it all.

Is there anything you really really don't like? Anal beads (which we don't use any more because she made that clear a while back, though when we were using them, she never told me to stop, she just said she didn't like them).

I also know she doesn't like pain, because she makes that clear too. I can inflict a little, and then she starts to lose her horny. But she has never actually stopped me (though I usually stop when she says it hurts--once in a while I push past that just a little, like I'll tell her five more spanks, and give her some good hard ones).

So there you have it. She doesn't particularly like or dislike anything, and she loves just about everything.

Now I'm scratching my head and, other than what I've been doing which is to continue to push her in little ways, where do I go with this? I know I'm doing the right thing for the most part, but how do I get her to eagerly await a spanking?

I give my lizard monthly massages on Sunday nights, for one hour. Last night was her night. She lit the candles, took off her clothes, set up her massage table and was waiting at 7:58 pm. I always start at 8:00. She never gets ready for sex like that, unless I command her too. I send her an e-mail and she obeys. I guess it would be nice if just once she was laying in bed with the flogger by her side and waiting for master.

On the other hand, I can't complain. She is a lovely wonderful woman and a great wife in so many ways. And she is slowly, slowly, changing her behavior. She does call me sir more spontaneously now, though still not often. She does allow me to take complete control in bed, even to the point of blindfolding her and tying her arms up. I don't guess every woman would allow that (I wouldn't know much about it though since I just started on this path two years ago after we were already married).

As always, all comments are welcome.

Milestone: 100,000 Views

2011-08-27T09:40:00.000-07:00

Well, I may have to change my name from Neodomtom to Notsoneodomtom, but I'm proud to say I hit my 100,000 views milestone and it only took me two years to get there! Thanks for all the readers who have stuck with me, and to the new readers as well. May the next two years bring another 100,000! 182 followers and (slowly) growing as well.

What Is True Submission?

2011-08-26T10:51:00.000-07:00

I have noticed a big difference between the motivation of many submissives who post blogs and my own lizard.

Almost all the bloggers who I read have a true deeply seated desire to please, and are not only willing to please, but the need is part of them, such that submission is not a chore or a request, it is an independent desire.

My lizard could care less if she ever submitted to me. She has absolutely no desire to submit. When we have sex, whether it is vanilla or has an element of D/s control, she enjoys it equally. If I never spanked her again, she would be totally content. I'm the one who gets very excited by exercise Dominion over her.

On the other hand, she does not dislike TTWD. She just has no strong desire one way or the other. I love to lead, so she lets me. She calls me sir when I ask her to. She will suck my cock and let me cum in her mouth even though she doesn't like it, if I tell her to. She wiggles her ass nicely for me when I spank her because she knows I like it. She will express her dislike for certain things, and I generally stay away from them, but when I insist, she will almost always go along. Of course, I can't push too far (same sex liaisons, frequent anal sex, etc).

There is an inherent difference between submitting because you feel it's your life destiny, and submitting because you love your husband and will do as he says out of obedience, but even beyond that, you will still enjoy it because you know it brings him pleasure.

It is a rather subtle distinction, and may be a distinction without a difference, though I must admit I would be shocked if I came home one day and my lizard spontaneously told me, "Sir, I am yours, do with me as you please."

Since I don't know the mentality behind the "true" submissive, someone who greatly needs master's control, I'd be interested in getting other perspectives on this. Am I creating a semantic distinction that has no real meaning? Are there things I can do knowing my lizard's mentality to continue to bring her along? As opposed, that is, to a woman, as an example, who might plead with master to be spanked and who begged to suck master's cock and swallow his cum?

This weekend should be fun! We have a date tonight (movies and king crab), and I told my lizard to wear a dress and crotchless panties. Tomorrow I get one of my rare blow jobs where I cum in her mouth. I only ask her to do that three times a year. Then on Sunday my sweet princess gets her one hour massage (I made it very clear that my blow job and tonight are not in any way tied to her massage, they are two entirely independent things). She is such a sweet angel that I can't complain, though I do like reading other blogs by "true" submissives!

My Angel

2011-08-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

My lizard is such an angel. I sent her an e-mail yesterday and asked her, among other things, to get the restraints out of my drawer. She actually ended up tying them to the posts of our four-poster bed even though I didn't ask her to.

I read to her from a book called Secret Submissive which I had bought a while back but had not taken out yet. She giggled when I read about the woman calling her new boyfriend "sir." She had that "now I understand why you wanted to read this book" look on her face.

Afterward, I tied her down on her back, blindfolded her and used the Whartenberg wheel on her, and a feather duster, and i kissed her all over. Then I gave her a good spanking. She obediently wiggled her ass around while I spanked her. At one point I moved my cock around to her mouth and shoved it in from the side as I kept spanking. After a while when she began to protest, I told her five more spanks on each cheek, and gave her five good whacks.

I turned her over and tied her up again. I tickled and kissed her all over, and used the wheel on every body part, her breasts, her vagina, everywhere. I licked and sucked around her vagina lips without touching her clitoris or her opening.

Then I mounted her. I slowly fucked her as I told her she was a slut, and that she was mine to do with as I pleased. She was very obedient, and told me yes sir each time. I shoved her face into the bed and grunted, something that I believe turns her on when she is blindfolded--I like to sound like someone rough and mean, perhaps she imagines a stranger though she would never admit that to me.

As she began to breath harder, I also felt my load ready to explode inside her. Her legs and arms strapped, she could only express herself through her moans. She began turning red, a sure sign that she was about to reach her climax, and just as she did, I shot my first load of cum deep inside her slutty fuckhole, then another and another. A little stream of jism trickled from between her legs, mixing with her own juices and running onto the bed. I stayed inside her for a long time, unstrapping her arms and legs while my cock was still thrust as far as it would reach as it slowly softened.

It had been a long long time.

Instructions

2011-08-24T17:35:00.000-07:00

This was kind of cute. I e-mailed my lizard some instructions this morning on things I wanted her to get ready for me when I get home, including putting the restraints out on the bed, a feather duster, etc. She called me five minutes ago to tell me her computer was offline and she needed to know what I wanted her to prepare for me! So I had to text her the list. Here's the e-mail:

Tonight I want you to be a good girl and listen to everything I tell you, and make sure you call me sir.

I want you to pick out a sexy outfit and have it on the bed by the time I get home at 5:45.

I would like you to offer me a glass of red wine when I get home.

Also, please put your collar on the bed, a feather duster, and all four restraints from my drawer.

There are some sexy books in my top drawer. I want you to pick one out for us to look at together.

I am going to tie you up and spank you, then kiss and tickle you all over until you go crazy!

Recovery

2011-08-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

Even though I finished with my trial last week, I limped into the finish line with a stomach ailment and a massive headache. The headache came at night for three nights in a row. I rarely get headaches, so I was concerned, but I think it was just from stress.

Then I also had some kind of stomach ailment that caused my digestive system untold misery and also elevated my temperature every evening to the 99.5 range. That stayed with me until at least Saturday. I say at least because things are still somewhat tentative today.

Notwithstanding my various and sundry ailments, I got in a good spanking and sex session on Saturday night. My lizard wore her collar for the first time in a few weeks. She got right back into her submissive role. I like to ask her, "what are you?" She always answers, "I'm your angel, sir." Then I ask "what else are you?" She is supposed to respond, "I'm your slut, sir." This time she said, "I forget." So I reminded her, and made her repeat it back. Several times.

When I spanked her I ended by telling her she was going to get five good whacks on each cheek, and I gave them to her hard. I find at the end of a spanking, if I tell her there is a limited number coming, she doesn't complain even when they are rather hard.

I hope to have more tales to tell during the week. I have so many devious plans I haven't been able to fulfill.

Verdict

2011-08-17T18:34:00.000-07:00

After all our hard work, my partner and I are proud to have won a $3.36 million verdict in a death case for our clients. We can now sigh a collective sigh of relief, and I can go back to Dominating my dearest sweetest lizard. Lots of tension relieved!

Sir

2011-08-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

To me that is one sweet word. As you all know I have been totally absorbed with my work for the last two weeks. I'm back. We are waiting for the jury to decide our case, so it's a little nerve wracking. Anyway this weekend my little lizard called me "sir" several times during the day without me prompting her. that is a first for me and I'm quite glad to see her continue to progress. This was day time out of the bedroom. She called me sir three times, and each time I told her "good girl," and gave her a little peck on the cheek.

With trial and her period we have not had sex in the last two weeks. Finally, Sunday night and last night we did it. Nothing special, just a huge release for both us. I'd say it lasted two minutes each time! She comes very fast when we haven't had sex for a while, and I usually follow quickly. Last night we had a simultaneous orgasm and I came deep inside her sweet fuckhole. Aaaaahhh.

Tonight we will get back to some old fashioned domination. I have already e-mailed her to tell her to wear her collar.

Lucid Dreams Vibrator

2011-08-07T14:56:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Eden Fantasies once again, I have had the opportunity to explore some turf with my lizard that she would not otherwise have explored. She has told me in the past she does not like vibrators. Now that we have tried the Lucid Dreams Petite, she likes them somewhat better.

It is a bit small, but has a great shape. I have been, as my regular readers know, swamped with a trial and so we have not had sex much. Thursday and Friday night of last week were my two nights off--the trial court is closed on Friday so the lawyers and the judges can take care of other business on their calendars, so Thursday night we got in a little not-so-quality play time. We had a quick fuck, and lights out.

Friday is a little more relaxed.

Of course we always start with candles and romantic music (Tim Story, Persistence of Memory is one of my favorites). Then a torrid make out session. Next, I cuff her hands over her head and blindfold her. I dish out a brief spanking, then take my new toy out of the top drawer. She hears the drawer open.

"What are you doing?"

"You'll find out soon enough," is all I tell her.

I lube up the little pecker and turn it on. It has one on-off button with speeds from slow to fast--no fancy whistles and bells, just a nice silicon-based vibrator. I slide it against her pussy and work it in. She is already wet enough so it slides in easily. I start to kiss her hard on the lips, and allow the vibrator to do its work. It has a nice little bump on it for g-spot, and she pushes back against it by pushing her ass down into the bed. I rub my cock on her stomach and close to her well-shaved pussy as I keep working the vibrator in and out. She becomes more and more aroused.

We kiss more gently now, and her breathing is becoming labored. I push the vibrator all the way up her hot pussy, and slowly bring it back out, making sure to apply as much pressure toward the top as I can. After a few more minutes of this, she can stand it no more and releases with a hot and explosive orgasm.

I quickly mount her, putting a little KY Jelly between her awesome breasts, and thrust my hard ridged cock between her breasts. My cock looks angry it so hard. I continue to thrust without any regard for her now, sliding my engorged cock between her tits as I push them together to warm envelop my cock. And thrust harder and harder until I shoot hot globs of cum onto her tits and face, firing off several good loads.

So it looks like we have found a new sex toy to add to our arsenal!

I'll be done trial and back on spank by the end of next week, with some wild new tales to tell, I'm sure.

Oh yeah, and I did have a nice conversation with my lizard the other night. I told her again I want her to be my submissive. she said, "I already am in bed." She has come totally to understand her position in sex. Now I still want to push her in other areas, but she resists the word submissive. She is afraid I want to control her, though I assure he repeatedly I do not. I just want to master her!

I am not interested in micromanagement or making her ask for permission to go wherever she wants to go. I want three things, and have been consistent about it since day one.

1. She must never tell me what to do.
2. She muist always obey me when I tell her what to do (which is not all the time, believe me).
3. If we have a difference of opinion about something, I have the final word.

Sounds like a lot, I know, but with me it really isn't.

Anyway, y'all have a great week and I look forward to rejoining everyone soon!

The Little Girl Calling Her Master A Liar

2011-08-05T16:10:00.000-07:00

Hey folks, I will be posting tonight and then Monday morning, then disappear into the ether again until the end of next week, but I'll be back after that. I sure do miss reading al the great blogs out there.

I've been working 8 am to 9 pm all week, and and the weekends. I am a trial lawyer and I'm in trial right now on a death case (personal injury). So my poor lizard does not get much of me.

Her little girl has been coming out a lot lately because she misses me. She puts on her little girl face and her little girl voice, then she gets bratty. She desperately needs my attention. When she becomes the little girl she gets very bratty. She keeps saying "you liar." Example:

"I'm sorry, honey I've had to work really hard this week."
"You liar."

I know she needs my attention, but I struggle with how to respond. Usually I tell her I am going to punish her but I haven't had time. I think that's what she needs, and maybe that's what she is begging for, a good spanking!

I'll be glad when I can rejoin all my online friends!

Silence is Spoken Here

2011-07-23T09:17:00.000-07:00

I have been unable to post lately, and that is likely to continue for another month. I was in trial two weeks ago, on vacation last week, and have another trial starting on August 1 (a three weeker) and another vacation coming up in September!

That means little time for sex, less time for posting about sex (or anything else). Just thought I'd pop in and let y'all know in case anyone was worried. Life is beautiful, but busier than a bee on a honey farm.

More on a Lovely Night

2011-07-07T15:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I sent my lizard some instructions. Last night, when I got home she claimed she had not read her e-mails. Ok, that may be true. So we went to dinner as planned with some friends, then when we got home, I told her to check her e-mail. She did. Then she got everything ready while I showered, and dressed up in a new outfit she had bought herself in Los Angeles, which turned out to be too short for her awesome torso (she is 5'9"), but it was not so bad. It had a flap that ran under her crack that unsnapped to allow easy access--always a good feature, and was skimpy on the breasts, also nice.

So after my shower we snuggled and kissed a bit,then I got down to business. She had picked out a blindfold and the flogger as two items she wanted me to use. I asked her about them--did you pick these because you like them or were you just picking the first thing you saw? She giggled nervously, not wanting to talk about it. I persisted. Yes, she admitted, I like the blindfold. Does it make your pussy wet, I asked? She giggled again. And the flogger too? Yes, sir, she answered meekly, I like it too.

I laid her on her tummy and cuffed her arms. Then started to gently swat her ass. After a few gentle strokes, I picked up the intensity, slowly and with small measures. Eventually, I unsnapped her bottoms and started to tickle her pussy with my finger. I slapped a little harder, then lightened up, blew on her ass, kissed it and kept tickling her pussy. She had gotten me a rubber spatula as the spanking implement, and I smacked her now and then with that as well.

I moved my cock to her lips, and as she lay handcuffed and blindfolded, I pushed my cock into her mouth, and continued to slap her ass, filling her mouth with my rock hard cock.

When I moved back down to her pussy, she was getting very wet. I inserted the tip of the spatula into her pussy and kept slapping her ass. If the spatula slipped out, I would push the tip back inside her.

Then I got on top of her and rammed my cock into her until it hurt as she lay on her back. She was quite wet though, so I soon was well lubricated. I pulled her hips up a bit, and started slapping her ass as hard as I thought she could take. When I have a finger or cock in her pussy, she can take a lot more pain. I then pulled my cock all the way out, flogged her and spanked her a bit, then fuck her some more while I kept smacking her ass. I pushed the back of her head down into the bed at the same time, and her back and shoulders as well.

At one point I got to her "ouch" level, and she asked me to stop spanking. Usually I stop. This time I told her, you are mine and I'll slap your ass if I want to. Feeling a little sadistic. And then gave her a firm swat on the ass. And then another, and followed up with some whacks with the flogger. and some more hard spanks while I fucked her from behind.

Then I told her five more swats with the flogger and you're done. And counted them down for her. Five hard smacks.

I flipped her over and tied her arms up again, then started fucking her hard. I worked up a good sweat and kept pumping my rock hard cock deep into her soaking pussy. She threw her head back, and was pulling with all her might at the straps on her arms. Eventually I untied her arms and she hugged me so tight it was like our bodies had fused together. I kept pulsing my cock into her, but now we were like one unit, and I was almost just rolling it around inside her, fucking her so deeply, feeling the back of her pussy and her cervix wrapped tightly around my cockhead.

I pumped into her again, fucking her hard, and she began to turn red, her breathing grew heavy and she let out a passionate moan, then another, and kept moaning loudly for a minute or more, cumming with one of the most intense orgasms I had ever heard. I slammed into her a few more good strokes then shot my seed into her womb and dropped down onto her chest in a heap of sweat.

It was the first time I felt like I really possessed her and could do whatever I wanted whether she liked it or not. and she liked it, at least her orgasm sounded like she liked it. She is getting to be such a good girl!

Another Hot Night

2011-07-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

This is too frustrating. Last night, my lizard and I had a great night, but I simply don't have time to post about it! I'm hoping to send out a full report later, but for now this little teaser will have to do. She was quite the good girl last night, and I pushed her ever so slightly past her boundaries! More later, I hope. Happy spanking!

Instructions

2011-07-06T09:40:00.000-07:00

Today I sent my lizard the following e-mail:

My dearest sweetest lizard:

Today, I want you to not wear any underwear all day.

I want you to get some things out for me before we leave for Paul's house. Don't forget!

1. Your collar.
2. A spoon or other implement for me to spank you with.
3. The ties that go on the bedposts to tie up your hands.

4. A sexy outfit.

Look for them in my dresser. If there is anything else you want me to use you may get that out too. (Flogger, wheel, dildo, anal beads!!, whatever it is)

When we get home from Paul's please call me sir.

Please send back an e-mail to let me know you understand.

Thomas

An Exciting Weekend

2011-07-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

This Saturday was a wonderful day. I had e-mailed my lizard earlier in the week to be ready for me all day Saturday, that she was mine beginning Friday at midnight until Saturday at midnight, to take her whenever I wanted her. I reminded her with a text on Friday, saying "Don't forget, my precious lizard, starting at midnight tonight you are mine." She texted back "okay." That may not seem like much, but it was the first acknowledgement she has ever given me of any of my sex texts or e-mails, so to me it was a big deal. She always complies, but she never likes to acknowledge. She is quite shy abut the whole thing.

Had I awoken in the wee hours of Saturday morning, I might have taken her, but I didn't. At 8:00 am Saturday morning though, as she was still trying to open her eyes, I entered her from behind (not anal) and fucked her for fifteen minutes. Just to set the tone for the day.

We went shopping and took care of some chores, then got back home around 11. She was wearing a summer dress, and I told her to remove her panties. She did, without a peep. I told her to lean over the counter, and I fucked her from behind for about five minutes.

We took care of some things around the house and napped at about 2. And, you guessed it, after our nap I was on top of her again, fucking and pounding her until I worked up a sweat.

The fourth time we did it was in the back yard at 4 o'clock. I had put together some porch furniture that she bought, and when I was done I had her strip her panties off and mount me on one of the chairs. Our yard is quite private, but I had left the garage door open and she was expecting her daughter over to take a swim in the pool at any minute. She did comment on that, but dutifully mounted my cock anyway, and we fucked for at least another five minutes.

Later we went to the movies. As she was checking the movie times, I pulled my pants down and ordered her to suck my cock. She did so, though she did say, "you told me you could take me however you wanted, this isn't taking me." It was more of a joking tone though. I ordered her twice to take my cock all the way in, and although she gagged a bit the first time, the second time I told her she did so again, dutifully and without resistance.

After the movie (Midnight in Paris), when we went to bed I spanked her nicely, then handcuffed her hands to the headboard and filled her cunt again with my cock. I told her to be a good girl and cum for daddy, which eventually she did. And I soon followed.

All in all it was a great day. She was so much the little submissive.

And then Sunday night I gave her her monthly massage. That's my one service to her every month. A delicious one hour massage. I had also cooked one of my famous gourmet meals earlier (I love to cook when I can, though I do not accommodate my poor lizard's tastes when I do so--she hates radishes and I made a spring pea and radish salad so she had to pick the radishes out, but that's just the way I am)--chicken breasts with cherry tomato pan sauce (from Bon Apetit Magazine which my lizard subscribed to for me a few years ago).

Afterward, as she lay in the glow of her massage, I asked her "Do you like calling me sir?" "Yes," she answered, "because I know you like it." That's what she always starts with. Then I always have to probe deeper, so to speak.

"But do you like it?"

"Yes," she gently answered, "I do like it."

"For yourself," I asked.

"Yes," she answered meekly.

Another first--she has never told me that before, and I believe she really is coming to like it.

This morning, Monday, when I got up I said, "Good morning, my love."

She looked in my eyes and said the sweetest words a man can ever hear: "Good morning, sir."

Progress

2011-06-30T08:58:00.000-07:00

Baby steps. I need to keep thinking baby steps. And then there are the breakthrough moments,like last night. My lizard told me again last night she thought it was unfair that I wanted to demand things from her, yet I expect her to always ask me. She has told me this many times, then usually does not want to continue talking about it afterwards.

We finally had a nice little talk about it last night. I simply told her it makes me feel really good when she obeys me, that I have three rules I want her to follow, and that if she did, it would make me very excited. (1. Never tell me to do anything, always ask. 2. Always obey me when I tell you to do something. 3. If we disagree about something, I have the final word.) I told her it was not intended to be fair, but that she would have to trust me to use my judgement wisely.

I can see now that trust is a bigger part of her resistance then I had previously realized. She has been married three times before me, and in each case she was burned. Once because of liquor, once for violence, and once for another woman. All the major vices.

I'm a really really nice guy, but I think she is afraid I'll turn into a monster if she puts all her trust in me. Last night, I had a chance to directly address that issue, since I finally came to the realization that she does have trust issues. I told her I wasn't going to change, I would still be me, even if she agreed to allow me to be her master. She is thinking more about it. Softening up.

Then when we were in bed, she was a total kitten--but that's always been the case anyway. I tied her arms and legs to our four poster bed and got out the whartenberg wheel, a feather duster and the flogger. Everything was very gentle, though, I didn't even flog her, I just used it to drag the fingers across her skin.

When I finally entered her, she was so ready, but I told her not to cum. I said I want you to wait, because I want you to see that I have complete control of you. I kept my hard cock deep inside her for a few minutes, then teased the opening of her pussy with my cockhead, then went deep again.

She must have asked me five times if she could cum, each time being very polite, using "sir" as she always does in bed, and each time quietly accepting her fate when I said no.

I finally gave her permission--beyond that, I ordered her to cum for me. Cum for me, like a good girl. And she had an explosion.

I am totally dominant in bed, and I think with time (and some encouragement from some friends!!) I will continue to master her out of the bedroom as well.

An E Mail

2011-06-27T17:18:00.000-07:00

Here is the latest e-mail I have sent my lizard:

My dearest sweetest lizard:

A couple of weeks ago I was going to have a special day. I had to put it off because of my cold. I feel better now. Here is the original e-mail about my special day, which will instead take place this Saturday:

“I want to prepare you now for next Saturday. Next Saturday I want you to be “on call” for me, starting Friday at midnight until Saturday at midnight. In other words, you are to be ready for sex any time between those hours, without warning or notice. I will take you as I please.

That means I want you to wear clothing that will allow me to quickly fuck you any time of day, wherever and whenever I please. It also means you should be prepared for me all day, wet and ready so I can put my cock in you when I want to.”

I would just add that I may also want my cock suck, and you are to do so if I command you to.

Please prepare yourself mentally to be taken.

Master

Four AM Sex

2011-06-24T11:18:00.000-07:00

Last night my poor little lizard was horny. As I fell off to sleep, she was humping my leg.

About 4 o'clock this morning, we were both awake and horny. We started to hug. Her naked body felt irresistable against mine. Her beautiful tits pushed hard against my chest. We kissed. I pulled her panties off.

I rolled on top of my beautiful lizard, and shoved my cock all the way inside her. Three long strokes and she came. Within a couple minutes I came too. Aaahh.

Then she put her head on my chest and we fell back alseep.

It's nice having sex in the early morning, even after four years of marriage!

Lizard Is Back

2011-06-23T12:16:00.000-07:00

My lizard was out of town on Tuesday night. She came home last night, and as we lay in bed she lay in my arms and i stroked her hair. Whenever she lays by my side in bed, she puts her head on my chest and I can fell the length of her sexy body against mine. We fell asleep like that.

Even though she is tall, almost as tall as me (5'11" and 5'9"), she always lays with her head at my chest level. I like that.

This morning, I told her "Good Morning, my love." She responded "Good Morning, sir."

I always like it when she calls me sir in the morning.

We are madly in love with each other.

My Simple Fantasy

2011-06-20T11:06:00.000-07:00

I want to come home and tell you, take off your clothes. Now turn, slowly please. Thank you, that's a good girl. Come over here. Take your position. You know what to do. (You kneel at my feet and your body slides between my legs as I remain seated. I pet your head.) Tell me about your day, now, my good girl. (I continue to pet your head and hair as you tell me all the thousand little things you did during the day--I listen to every word, each word like a magical potion intoxicating me and making my cock stiffen.)

And that's it. Of course, there is a lot more, but all stuff I already get. This is one I have never gotten, at least not yet. as I recover from my cold, I have on my long list to entertain this fantasy with my woman one of these nights. We'll see how that one goes soon. For this weekend, though, I have to fulfill last week's postponed fantasy of having my little sex toy at my disposal and on call all day Saturday. I had to cancel because my stinky cold.

Reality can really fuck things up sometimes.

The Nature of Dominance

2011-06-17T10:17:00.000-07:00

As I recover from my cold, and finally had enough energy to have (vanilla) sex last night, Ia question has been tumbling through my overactive mind. What is Dominance? Silly question, right?

I ask myself whether I really am Dominant or even want to be. There are certainly realms in my life where I have ceded complete control to my lizard. Almost every interior decorating choice is hers. Why? Because she is brilliant at it. I disagree with her choices so rarely and she makes everything look so wonderful that I wold be a fool not to let her take control. If there is something I don't like, however, as rare as that may occur, I will always tell her. If I really don't like it, I tell her no and she listens. Likewise, if there is something I really want (real wood for our hardwood floors) I tell her, and she listens.

Now to something more mundane. I wear a tie 95 percent of the time to work. Every morning I pick my outfit, then I go to my lizard and show her four or five ties that I could wear, and she picks the finalist.

Another area where she tends to control is that when we are picking events for the weekend, I usually don't have a strong preference. She will usually decide what we will do. Again, if there is anything I want to do in particular, I tell her and she says ok.

This brings me back to the question. What is dominance? I know just telling someone "suck my cock," for example, and expecting them to do it, is not necessarily an example of dominance, at least without more context. (I do frequently tell her that, in fact, and she willingly obliges me.) In some senses of the word, I am very dominant. When I was sick this last week, for example, she was sad. I have an almost spiritual or non-physical presence that dominates our relationship in subtle ways.

On the other hand, my lizard is very independent. I don't expect her to ask for permission to go out with her friends, though if she is ever going to be home later than me, she will always tell me beforehand. She won't ask me if it's ok, but if I told her I needed her at home for something (legitimate), she would be there.

And likewise, I am not very demanding. I am overall a very easygoing person in terms of my expectations. I don't need much. As a matter of fact, right now my life is as close to perfect as one could expect. I want for nothing. I ask for little. But when I do ask she responds.

There are some little things I would like to change. She likes to tell me what to do. I would rather she asked, and I tell her that constantly, and she does sometimes try to be compliant, but telling people what to do is so habitual with her (single mom bringing up two daughters) that it is a hard habit to break.

I'm not sure where all this leaves me. I feel like though I do dominate certain parts of our lives, she controls others.

Does the D/s dynamic depend more on actions, or more on motivations?

I'm interested in feedback from all you silent lurkers out there!

I Am Sick

2011-06-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

In fact, it's time to go home I fell so bad. Back to sleep. I never thought trying to set up play nights would be so hard, but the days go by and we seem to always have some issue or other that comes up. I was hoping for tonight to be a play night, but I can't do it! When I'm sick I just want to lay in bed. It's not good for a Dom to be sick because I am the head of household in many ways, including setting the pace for our everyday life. I need to get better so I can get back to the fun posts!

Great Weekend

2011-06-13T09:22:00.000-07:00

My lizard and i had a very nice weekend. She had a party for her daughter's college graduation and there were about 50 people at the house. I made a drink called Between the Sheets, ouch! 4 shots of Brandy, 3 of White Rum, 1 shot of Curacao and 1 shot of lemon juice, shaken with ice then poured. Two of those was enough to get me going. My wife did an excellent job setting up and preparing everything. Saturday I was her slave--I told her I was there to help her with anything she needed.

Last night I massaged my lizard's legs because she had worked so hard on the party. the house still needs to be put back together, a job she will be working on all this week, I'm sure.

In the meantime, Wednesday night should be a good night, and today I am e-mailing her about next Saturday's devious plan. Here's my e-mail:

I want to prepare you now for next Saturday. Next Saturday I want you to be “on call” for me, starting Friday at midnight until Saturday at midnight. In other words, you're to be ready for sex any time between those hours, without warning or notice. I will take you as I please.

Busy Bee

2011-06-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

We have both been really busy this week after spending a wonderful weekend at the coast last weekend. My lizard's daughter graduated from college this year, so we are hosting a big party at the house. I love parties because I get to make mixed drinks, and I love the adventure of always trying something new. I usually love to cook as well, but when we have large parties, I leave it all in my lizard's hands.

But alas, because of all the activity, not much sex. Last night was one of the very few times in our relationship where we both did not want sex because we are both so tired.

I do have some devious plans for next week (one weeknight and one Saturday of next week) so stay tuned for some spicy hot sex. I like to keep things fresh and mix them up a bit, always trying something new.

Last Night

2011-06-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

Last night we had very vanilla sex. My lizard cums every time we have sex, whether I am gentle, whether she is tied up, whether I am pinching her nipples hard (even though she does not like pain), it simply doesn't matter. She cums once every time we have sex, no more, no less. This is not a complaint, but when I think about true submission, that would be it. Never asking for any particular kind of sex, never complaining when I do the "crazy" things I like to do. Always laying there for me (or mounting me when I instruct her to), and always spreading her legs for me.

I do think she has more intense orgasms when I tell her how slutty she is, or when I push down against her head or tie her up or after a good spanking. But no matter, she will cum and cum once a night. Every time. Every night. She is my good little girl and I love her.

Anthony Weiner's wife looked pretty hot. He should have been faithful to her. Here she is.

A Strange Dream

2011-06-06T11:04:00.000-07:00

I usually don't remember my dreams, and even more rarely post about them, but last night I had a very unusual dream, for me at least. I was at a sex vacation resort of sorts. There were women all around dessed in very provocative outfits. Of course, even though it was a co-ed establishment, all I saw in my dream was a bunch of women, most of them in their 20s and 30s. Since I'm 51 this was rather thrilling for me. Many were topless and had nice firm breasts. I have described to others how I like very large and very small breasts.

At one point I got dressed in a very strange outfit. It was see through plastic on the top half (my torso) with some kind of crazy headgear--not at all erotic, more comical, but I was all very serious wearing it. I went and met with another couple. I was interviewing with the wife to see if she wanted to have sex with me, but the husband was there too to give his approval. He was going off to fuck my wife after our meeting.

I have never had an actual "swinging" experience and don't know if I would want one, but the dream sure got me thinking.

Obedience

2011-06-02T16:31:00.000-07:00

I e-mailed my lizard yesterday to tell her she was not to determine what I did or didn't do since she was complaining about her nipple being sore after we used the nipple chain with clamps on it.

My dearest sweetest lizard:

I know the nipple clamps hurt your nipples. I will not make you wear them often, but I do like you to wear them sometimes. If they cause you a little pain, I am sorry but I still like you to wear them for my pleasure. Do you understand that? I hope so, my darling.

If you are going to be my submissive woman (and you are), you must understand that there are things I do for your pleasure, and there are things I do for my pleasure. Put your complete trust in my hands. I will not push you further than you should go.

Please write back to let me know that is ok with you, my sweetest.

Love,

Thomas

She did not respond. So I asked her last night if she had gotten the e-mail and she said she had. I re-sent it today asking her to please respond. I will let you know how it goes.

Nipple Pain and Power

2011-06-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

Two nights ago I had my lizard wear nipple clamps with a chain as I fucked her until she came. We have the adjustable kind of clamps, and I put them on one of the lowest (least painful) settings, but tight enough to stay on.

Yesterday she complained of nipple pain. My lizard is not a pain slut. she will tolerate some short term pain but does not like too much of it. So last night she told me, "no more nipple clamps, my nipple hurts."

I responded with "if I say you will wear them again,you will."

She, being the non-submissive submissive that she is, said "but they hurt."

"I know," I tell her, "but still if I say you will wear them you will."

She was not agreeable to that proposal and we left it in a stalemate.

I wanted to share this exchange with everyone because it is a good illustration of the limits of her submission and the limits of my Dominance.

There was no high emotion, we are always good to each other, but still I didn't like the standoff.

Now that I've written this, I know what I must do. I will e-mail her and explain that, even though I can ask her to do whatever I want her to do, of course I will take into consideration that the clamps caused her pain.

Thanks for helping me work that one out!

E Mails

2011-05-27T14:39:00.000-07:00

Here is an e-mail I sent my lizard yesterday:

My dearest sweetest lizard:

I am very pleased at you for fixing the back porch, my sweet. I look forward to seeing your hard work. You are a wonderful and beautiful and pleasing wife and you make me very happy.

I loved your submission last night. You were very obedient and did everything I asked of you, and not only that, you did it very well. When you are a good girl for your Master, Master is very very happy. I have a great feeling when you do as I ask without hesitating. You must always allow me to have my way with you, even when you are not pleased with what I ask of you.

I will see you after the gym, sweet woman. I am going to fuck you tonight even if you are bleeding.

You are my naughty little slut, aren’t you dearest?

Love,

Master

When I got home I asked my lizard if she liked the e-mail. She said yes. Then I asked her how did you feel when you read it? She said she laughed!

This is the first e-mail I have sent where I have called myself Master and spoken to her this directly. I tell her all the time I want her to submit, but I think it's good to put it in writing too.

All comments welcome.

Wartenberg Wheel

2011-05-26T10:48:00.000-07:00

I have two topics for today's post.

First, let me tell you about last night. I had a wonderful evening last night in which my lizard gave over total control and was submissive as a kitten (I can see why so many subbies call themselves kittens, it's just so fitting). I had e-mailed her from work to give her some instructions, for which she got a D minus. I told her to tie two restraints to the bed posts so I could strap her arms, and to take out her collar, a blindfold and an outfit to wear for later in the evening. When I got home. the collar was on the bed, but she had done none of the other things. I thought it interesting that the one thing she did put out was the collar. that alone said a lot to me. We had plans to go out to dinner that evening, but my e mail was clear for her to get everything out before I came home from work. when I asked her why she had not followed the instructions, she said she thought she was supposed to do it after dinner. Hmm.

I punished her by making her lean over the bed while I gave her a hard over-the-pants spanking. Then I told her to tie up the restraints and get the other things out. She whined and said she didn't know how I wanted the restraints tied on. I told her just make sure they are not too long. She obeyed after some more whining. And then got out the blindfold. I told her I had a special new toy, but did not tell her what it was. Of course, reader, you know it was the Wartenberg Wheel.

And that brings me to the second subject. I have begun a relationship of sorts with Eden Fantasies, a company which sells sex toys and which gave me the wheel to try out for free as long as I included information about it in my blog. A win-win as far as I'm concerned--I get to try new stuff and then I get to write about my sexual explorations at the same time.

After dinner we got home and headed for bed. She put on one of her sexier outfits, a bra with lacy red flowers and half cups, and her Lola Luna ($50!) crotchless underwear. And then I told her to put on her own blindfold, a scarf tied around her eyes, which she did without complaint, and over which I placed an eyeshade. I cuffed her arms with her lying face down. Her arms were quite stretched out because she had tied the restraints a little short.

I asked her if she would like a spanking. Yes sir, she said politely. I asked her are you sure. Yes sir. Then ask for it, I said. Please spank me, sir. So I obliged. After a few spanks, I asked her to show me whether she liked it by wiggling her ass if it was good. she started moving her sexy naked ass around, arousing my cock into a stiff hard fuck-rod. About three or four minutes, I pushed my finger into her wet pussy and began rubbing, all the while spanking her harder and harder. I actually got to the point where I thought for sure she would whimper, but she was a very good girl and took some pretty hard spanks. I would then lighten up after two or three hard spanks, and then ramp up again, all the time rubbing her g spot as she wiggled back and forth for me. Her ass turned a nice red color, not bruised but marked.

I then turned her over, still blindfolded. I got the wartenberg wheel out and began to roll it over her skin. The wheel has little points on it, so it makes your skin feel tingly. This one was not nearly as brutal as some I have seen pictures of that have longer more painful looking spikes. She did not know what it was, since we had never used it before. I started rolling it across her tummy first, then moved to her arms. Then I started on her breasts. My lizard has fairly sensitive nipples, so I was a little reluctant to roll it right over them, but I did anyway after sucking on them to make them stand up. I asked, do you like that? Yes sir, she replied. Do you want more? Yes sir, please.

I moved down to her thighs, and rolled it with varying pressure over the inner thigh, right near her hot wet cunt. Then onto her cunt lips, and then I opened the lips up and even rolled it directly on the opening of her cunt and over her clitoris. I was tempted to push the whole thing inside her, but figured that would be disastrous. She actually enjoyed it quite a bit.

Finally, I moved over her. She was such a good girl all night, and allowed me complete control. I love her when she is like that. It makes my cock so hard. I untied her arms, and took off the blindfold. I teased her with my cock tip as I continued to roll the wheel over her breasts and onto her nipples. Then I rolled off and ordered her to suck my cock. After a few minutes, I told her to take me down her throat. Usually when she does this, she allows one thrust, then backs off. This time she let it slide down four, five maybe more times. I don't know. I lost count. Suck my balls, I ordered. She did so.

cockhead pass right up to her cervix. She gasped and threw her head back. I pulled out, then very slowly thrust in again. She was so wet.

I continued to fuck her at a deliberate pace, and she was aching to have more. My well-lubricated cock was glistening with her love juices as I kept slowly thrusting in very deliberately, and as far as I could go inside her. After a few minutes of this, I let loose. I told her she could cum when she wanted, and I started fucking her in a steady rhythm. Her face reddened, my cock was about to burst. I kept my control, though and waited for her to explode. Within a couple minutes, I followed, shooting my hot load deep inside her, then coming to rest. I could feel her wetness dribbling from between her legs as my cock softened inside her. She was so good. It makes me hard just to think of it.

So all my questions about submission have been answered. She is so beautiful and submissive in bed, I just love the girl!

I hope to get more bondage toys from Eden Fantasys, as well as other products that I will mention in my blog from time to time. In the meantime, this gave me the opportunity to learn about a fun new product without having to pay for it, and the chance to blog about another great night of sex. I always have a devious plan up my sleeve, so stay tuned.

Terrorism, Submission and Some Random Thoughts

2011-05-25T16:35:00.000-07:00

There are so many different lifestyles represented on here. I have a small group of friends and in every instance it seems that the woman is very much on control, at least publicly she appears to be so. In my relationship, things are a lot more complicated. My lizard is definitely in control in certain areas--in at least one by an almost formal agreement. I have placed her in charge of our finances out of necessity. But at the dinner table I insist that she be submissive, publicly, and she is usually good about it. She does sometimes demand things from me when there are people around and I don't like that at all and have told her so.

When we have a disagreement about something, which is rare, I will typically have the final say. There are some exceptions. The other day we were making travel plans to visit my family in September. We will have to fly across the country. She did not want to fly on September 11 (ten year anniversary of the World Trade Center attacks), or, for that matter on 9/10 or 9/9 either. I told her I thought it was silly to be scared because there will be 100,000 flights on each of those days, and even if there is some kind of plane-based terrorist act (unlikely in and of itself) the chances that we will be on a plane that is part of the plot is minimal. Logically, there really is no need to fear.

My lizard, however, is not thinking logically. So I told her I thought we should fly on the 9th. That night I was looking for flights but did not make a final reservation because I had to check in with my family first to make sure we could get rides from the airport, etc.

The next morning my lizard very tentatively told me she was upset. I asked her why. She said I would get mad. No, I won't, I assured her. She told me she did not want to fly on the 9th. I understand, I told her. We won't. She has also told me she only wants to spend six or seven days with my family. That's where things get complicated. My mother has a place on the shore. It won't be open until September 10, a Saturday (there are people renting it the week before that). I want to stay as long as we can at the shore, so I told my lizard we could fly on the 8th as long as we stay through the following Friday, the 16th. Ultimately, she reluctantly agreed.

So in that instance we worked everything out. Where does Dominance end and abusiveness or just plain mean-spiritedness begin? I suppose I could have insisted we fly on the 9th and been the Dominant, but at what price? More generally, how is it being a Dominant when you are still taking your subbie's concerns into control? I feel like I'm missing something here..

On Being Submissive

2011-05-24T16:51:00.000-07:00

I recently read the blog entry by Dauntless Vitality and it got me to thinking. DV talks about the light bulb moments in a relationship where the submissive comes to certain realizations--that she is owned by the Dominant, or that her orgasms belong to him, for example. I wonder whether any woman can ber brought to that realization, or if only certain women who are predisposed to desire that kind of dominance will be brought to that position.

My lizard has certainly learned some things about being submissive. she will put on her collar, she will suck my cock on command, she will wait to have an orgasm until I tell her to, but I certainly come nowhere close to owning her in any sense of the word. I do tell her she is mine when we are having sex, and i do tell her I can use her however I want, but I know there are strict limitations to that use. For example, if i told her we were going to have anal sex every day,she would refuse.

What I wonder, then, is whether she will someday develop that type of deeper understanding of my need to dominate her that DV talks about when she herself probably does not have any such need to be dominated. She is a good girl and I can't complain. It should be obvious to anyone who knows me that I will always want more from her and keep pushing her limits. Within that frameowrk, I wonder whether she will ever have the "aha" moment.

Cycles

2011-05-23T17:22:00.000-07:00

Some people are manic depressive. I go through cycles too, only my lows are like most people's highs, and my "manic" stage is really manic. Really manic. I still haven't figured out in which stage I am most productive, but I'm in that stage right now. I get totally organized and want to get lots of work done. In short, I kick ass. At some point, this phase will begin to pass. I will feel an intense sense of boredom, not depression, I'm rarely sad, but just pure and endless boredom. And my productivity, at least as that term is defined in the business world, will go way down while my creativity will go way up. That's when I get all my devious sex ideas. Sitting at my desk at work wearing my button downs and a tie. And then after a few weeks of intense boredom, I will get even more creative and want to write a bunch of crazy poems and maybe have some ridiculous entrepreneurial idea that, fortunately, I will not have the initiative to waste money on.

I don't mind the cycles, I just wish I cold get a handle on when they will come and how long they will last. That way I could plan better and make sure all my work related stuff gets squeezed into the next few weeks or months or whatever amount of time it is this phase lasts.

Victory!

2011-05-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

After stressing about my ex-wife suing me on Friday, I came in to work and wrote a 27 page letter to her lawyer (which I wrote for my lawyers, yes I am represented by attorneys) over the weekend. On Monday, we got word that the court had dismissed her case after 4 1/2 years because her lawyers had failed to properly respond to certain written questions we had sent her (repeatedly failed to respond over a five month period of time). Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. When I told my lizard the case had been dismissed, she said it finally feels like your divorce is final (with my ex--lizard and I have only been together about 4 1/2 years, so we've had this case hanging over our heads the whole time). Now I expect a good thing (which is what lizard and I have) will get better.

This morning my lizard said "good morning, sir." The first time she has said first thing in the morning without me prompting her. I believe when I get my big fat IRS debt off my back she will continue to be more and more submissive. The lawsuit and the IRS debt really bother her, though she never says anything to me about them. I just know they bother her.

Sorry about the dearth in posting but things have been busier than usual, which is a good thing.

I should be back soon posting about some of our sexual adventures.

A Delcicious Irony

2011-05-13T15:41:00.000-07:00

I am a lawyer. I specialize in suing people and winning often very large judgments for them. I am now being sued (and have been for the last four years) by my ex-wife. Her lawyer is a complete boob who wouldn't be able to find his way out of a trash can even if it was on fire (whatever that means). He has abused every process of the court and when we tried to call him on it on Wednesday and today, the judge basically rewarded him and my ex for their gamesmanship. We have started trial twice already and have a third trial set to begin in June. Why is this happening to me? Is it some kind of rough justice for all the lawsuits I've brought against others? Although the irony may be delicious in some greater sense, to me personally it is exhausting!

Busy as a Bee

2011-05-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been quite busy. Everything is quite good, but I simply haven't had time to blog or comment. I really enjoy my time with the community, but looks like until next week I'll have to keep it short and simple. No wild sexy stories, no thought provoking philosophical tracts, nothing. My little lizard is still behaving and we are getting along famously. She is a wonderful woman. Until then...ENJOY!!

A Lovely Cock Sucking

2011-05-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

My lizard gave me an awesome blow job last night with a happy ending. She is only required to swallow three times this year, so yesterday was a very special day for me.

We were watching the news until about 10 after coming home from some friends' house last night. After the news was over, I told her "time for bed." She joked with me, "I'm still not ready for bed, I have some things to do." I knew she didn't want to swallow, but she knew she had to.

When we got to bed I put a sexy outfit out and her collar. She wore a white see through strip of material wrapped around her boobs and her back (like the one pictured), with some crotchless panties that came with the set. I love buying sexy outfits for my lizard.

We started making out hot and heavy, but she soon moved down to last night's main attraction. First she gently licked the tip of my hard cock, then moved her tongue gently up and down the shaft. Soon my cock was engulfed in her mouth. She moved her head up and down as I lay on my back, and sucked it in deep every once in a while. I grabbed the hair on the back of her head, not shoving her head down, just holding on for now.

"Lick my balls," I ordered. She did so, gently sucking them into her mouth one at a time and licking my shaved scrotum. This went on for quite a while. It felt awesome, as I could feel the slight roughness of her tongue licking at me, my gentle kitten sucking and licking at my command.

Then I pushed her onto her back. I can only cum when I fuck her face from above her, and it was time. I mounted her and pushed my cock as deep as I could down her throat, then slowly pulled back. I continued slowly fucking her face for two or thee minutes, then increased the pace and began pushing in and out. Every couple of minutes she would stop and catch her breath, but she only gagged once.

Then I strapped her arms down so I could totally take over and make her my little slave.

"What are you," I asked.

"I'm your angel, sir" she said.

"What else?"

"Your slut, sir."

"Good girl," I told her because she was.

I grabbed a handful of her hair and picked her head up as she lay with her arms strapped to the bedposts. I now had complete control, and very carefully inserted my manhood to the point of gagging but not beyond. I stroked in and out, carefully pushing my cock as far into her throat as I knew she could take without choking, slowly thrusting as my cock began to tingle and my blood began to pound. Then I increased the rhythm, still being very careful to stop before the choking point, and holding my little angel's hair in my hand, pushing my cock toward her head, and her head toward my cock.

Soon I knew it was time. She did too, because I suddenly became a wild lust-filled animal, my sense of time had completely vanished and my cock was ready to burst. I shot a hot load of cum down her throat. Then another, and a third. My angel just lay there and took it like a very good girl. She told me afterward she could feel it running down her throat, but never even tasted it.

It's such a wonderful feeling to have a little slut-angel wife who will take such good care of me.

We Vibe

2011-05-04T12:57:00.000-07:00

Last night I introduced a new toy into our bedroom, the We Vibe. It's a funny little vibrator that the woman inserts over her g-spot, and then the couple can have sex while the vibrator is partly inside. My lizard does not normally use vibrators (she has a dildo but it's not electrified). I bought it just to try it out and we gave it a trial run last night. I am hoping that at some point she may get used to it, and that it might help bring her to multiple orgasms. My lizard is strictly a one orgasm woman. The only time she has more than one orgasm is if we have sex intercourse for at least forty five minutes, she will sometimes "reset" during that time and have a second orgasm, but she is not one to have multiples.

It felt pretty good having my cock all the way inside her and feeling the vibrations against my skin, but she said she would rather feel my cock against her g-spot then the vibrator. She did eventually have an orgasm, though not one of her incredible crazy ones. I came soon enough afterward.

Tonight I get to shoot a load into her throat, so I am fairly excited. We will only be doing that three times this year.

Signs of Progress

2011-05-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

Over the last weekend, several small things happened, but when you add them all up, they show some real progress. I am realizing more and more that the further I push, the further I can go. My lizard is much more submissive in some ways than I would have ever thought. I am the one who needs work in being more dominant. Keep in mind that I grew up in a household where my mother did not seem to love my father much, and she could be very mean to him. she was also totally in control. My dad was one of the greatest men I've ever met--humble, loving, caring, non-judgemental, tolerant, but he was also a pushover. I have struggled against that tendency for much of my life, and am only now beginning to feel my Dom legs get more and more strength.

Anyway, the little signs were as follows. I told my lizard I was going to cum in her mouth. We scheduled it for this weekend, but due to my request, I asked to move our date to Wednesday night. Wednesdays are best for me since I go to the gym on the other nights. On Sunday, my lizard went out shopping and came home, to my surprise, with strawberries and pineapple to sweeten up my sperm! I have cum in her mouth very few times, so this preparation was quite the surprise. I will let everyone know how it goes on Wednesday.

Next, last night we had a hot sex session. She wore a tight see through top with no panties. I had laid it on the bed for her along with her collar. "Am I supposed to wear this." she asked. I did not answer and she dutifully put it on. I blindfolded her and told her to lay on her stomach. I tied her hands to the bed posts. I spanked her a few times, then asked, "who are you?" "I'm you're slut, sir," she answered. She has never responded that way before, although I do call her my slut. She usually answers, "I'm your angel."

I was feeling a little sadistic last night, so I gave her some hard strikes on the ass, then plunged my cock into her from behind and thrust it all the way up her womb several times. Then I pulled out. "I'm going to spank you ten times on each cheek," I told her. I spanked her fairly hard, trying to increase the intensity with each stirke, as I told her, "you little slut, I'm gonna fuck you good." After each strike, I counted out the number.

Then after ten I fucked her hard for a few more minutes. She was soaking wet by now. I pulled out and told her I was going to give her ten more spanks, but this time she was going to have to count. By the time I got to 4 she yelled out a loud "Ouch." Usually I would stop when she said ouch, but after the "ouch" she gently said "four," and I continued. When I got to six, she intentionally skipped to "seven" and we both had a good laugh. But then I told her if she skipped again we would start over. Then I smacked her ass hard all the way to ten. I asked her what she wanted, "I want your cock inside me sir." I told her to tell it to me dirty, "I want you to fuck me please, sir, fuck your slut."

Then I turned her over and strapped her arms again, and thrust my cock all the way inside her. She was still blindfolded. I pounded her while I grabbed at both her nipples and squeezed them, and told her "You little slut, you want my hot cock don't you slut?" "Yes sir," she said. I continued to talk dirty to her and squeeze her nipples, and pound her pussy with my rock hard cock, fucking her deep and taking her as my little submissive slut.

Her orgasm was quite intense. She came for at least a minute, groaning and crying out loudly, which turned me on and brought me to an intense peak as well. My cum squirted hot and hard inside her, mixing with her love juice as she kept moaning and crying out. What a sweet feeling! To fuck someone you love the way you want them. We were spent at the end of it, and fell onto the bed as the mixture of my cum and her wetness slowly dripped from her cunt onto the bed.

Finding The Right Balance

2011-04-26T09:34:00.000-07:00

Uncle Agony posted about a woman whose husband does not want to dominate.

This got me thinking about my situation, kind of the opposite. My lizard is very submissive in some ways, especially in the bedroom where she purrs like a little kitten, but outside of the bedroom she is a take-charge person and always telling me what I "need" to do, when I would much prefer a more submissive attitude from her. So there are many dynamics in every relationship. I tell her I want her to ask instead of tell me, but she habitually still makes the demands. This morning, however, she did e-mail me and asked me very sweetly to take care of something. The fact is I rarely refuse to do things for her when she asks.

Don't get me wrong--she is not even a demanding woman, generally speaking. She is never angry, never yells, never even gets upset (I have seen her angry twice in three years and seen her upset maybe twice), very even keeled and ultimately willing to submit to me on almost everything. Fortunately, in the areas where she likes to be involved I have no interest--she takes care of the finances and home decoration, those are her areas. And I love to cook, so she is lucky that way. We have a wonderful relationship that I would not jeopardize for anything, but she does not have that deep seated need to submit that I have read on many other blogs, and there are times when I wish she did.

For those of you seeking a partner, I can't imagine how difficult that must be. You may meet a person who is perfectly well behaved (for your needs), but if there is no chemistry then you are both wasting your time.

Anyway, the problem can work both ways. My wife does not have that submissive need that informs her whole life, and I have lately been feeling the need to dominate her. Relationships ultimately simply come down to this in my opinion--when you go home in the evening (or if you stay at home when He comes home in the evening) do you feel contentment, excitement even, or do you feel dread and unhappiness. In balance, when I come home I am always glad to see my little lizard, so I know I need to keep what I have. If you are in the latter category, I suggest you think seriously about why you are still together. We may not find perfection, life is not a fairy tale, but with the right partner you can still celebrate every day.

You just need to find someone whose yin balances your yang.

Regular Monday

2011-04-25T14:25:00.000-07:00

Today is a regular Monday. lizard and I had sex twice this weekend. She was supposed to suck me to orgasm, but I gave her a break because we had a very busy weekend. We had company over for Easter, had to work pretty much all day Saturday putting up a gazebo, and she had a very tough week last week (physically--she was out staining the back porch and some bricks we have in the yard).

She is already planning my diet for this week so my cum will taste better, so she is on board, but she pleaded with me to give her until next weekend, and I succumbed, so to speak.

We had great sex on Friday night. I fucked her gently, with her arms cuffed to the bedpost. I put my hand on her throat and pressed down gently as she neared orgasm. Her orgasm was one of the most powerful and intense she has ever experienced. We also did it Sunday morning, again it was very gentle and vanilla, and she had a nice big orgasm.

She still has some work to do on demanding things from me, but since she has never agreed to be my subbie, I have only my psychological skills to use in trying to get her to come around on that one. A subbie once advised me to just ignore her when she demands something, and that's what I did this weekend, but sometimes that's hard to. And sometimes the line is very fine between her telling me what to do and simply saying something that could be interpreted as a command. Anyway, just a few thoughts on a relatively busy weekend. This coming should be much better.

E Mails

2011-04-20T16:56:00.000-07:00

I sent my love two e-mails this afternoon. One was a link to a poem included on Dauntless Vitality's website, which encapsulates what one Dom wants from his woman in rather strong terms.

The other e-mail was as follows:

My dearest sweetest lizard:

While I will be away for part of the weekend, I want something from you this weekend. I want you to swallow my cum.
You can do it Friday, Saturday or Sunday. Let me know in advance what day you will do it, because I am going to change my diet and quit drinking coffee for two days, and whether you would prefer morning or evening. Also, if you would like to look at a website together this evening that gives you some tips for the easiest way to swallow, I will be happy to do that with you.
You can let me know either by return e-mail or tell me tonight. This is something I have been planning for a while and is not because of last night, though last night was very very hot.
Love you my sweet lizard!

I just called home and asked if she had read her mail. She answered yes, and laughed, and said I was funny. Let's see what happens tonight...

Torrid Make Out Session

2011-04-20T14:02:00.000-07:00

Last night lizard and I had an awesome and torrid make out session. It started out innocently enough, a few little pecks here and there, and slowly started to build up. We always have great kissing sessions, but this one stood out above the rest. She stroked my hardening cock while we deep-mouthed each other, our tongues hungrily caressing. I swatted her ass occasionally, rubbed her back, and stroked her skin all over. I started biting her skin gently. She began to lick my ear, biting it softly, and I put her left breast in my mouth, sucking in as much as I could, gently biting around the nipple, sucking and pulling on the nipple with my lips--I love it when her nipples stand up. We continued that for about five minutes as she kept stroking my cock. Then she moved her head down and sucked me in deeply, all the way to the back of her throat (not down it). She slurped and sucked hungrily at my hard cock, taking it down to the back of her throat over and over. then she cane back up and we started kissing again. I sucked at her lips, trying to pull them into my mouth and bite them, at her tongue, her face. She buried her head in my neck and kissed and bit and licked at my neck. I stroked her chin like a kitten, then put my hand over her throat and pushed down lightly as I continued to attack her mouth.

Finally I could take no more. I crawled up to her face, shoved my cock in and began fucking her face. I kept fucking harder and harder, shoving my cock in as far as I dared without choking her, and increased the rhythm of my strokes. I could feel the cum building up inside me. I pushed in to the point of orgasm, then shot hard all over her chest, landing cum on both tits and nipples, then falling onto the bed beside her.

For now, that was enough. This weekend will be different. She will suck my cum down her throat. But more on that later!

Stressed Out

2011-04-14T08:55:00.000-07:00

Wow! Things have really been crazy at my office lately. Usually I keep a cool head but yesterday I was grumpy when I got home. My poor and beautiful lizard was very sweet and brought me a glass of wine. It's hard to be Dominant when I'm stressed, because with me at least, my lizard requires lots of sweeteners. I am usually glad to provide them. Still, she was very good under the circumstances.

I had to travel out of town yesterday and stopped at an adult store in the town where I had business. I bought some straps with handcuffs on them to tie to the bedposts. I use ties now, but I thought it would be good to buy the straps. That way I can hook her up more quickly, and also probably get more versatility out of them by tying them together and pulling her limbs into devious positions.

Not A Pain Slut

2011-04-12T08:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a very tense day, so I was a little concerned about giving my lizard a punishment spanking because I thought my nerves might be to jangled.

When I was ready, last night I kindly told my lizard she would be getting a punishment spanking. As we sat on the couch and talked, I explained why--that she had been bratty and slapped my face, even though in jest, and that she needed to be a good girl. After we watched the news, we went to bed. I told her to lay in bed with her pants still on, and spanked her over the pants for about five minutes. then I told her to remove them. She wears thongs, so need to remove those. I began to spank her lightly, working my way up to a hard slap, until she grimaced and whined. She grimaces and whines when she feels pain. She does not like pain. I am not particularly sadistic and don't think pain would enhance her sexual experience and have no interest in inflicting pain for erotic purposes, though I do like to flirt with the edge of pain to let her know I'm in control.

Usually when I get the whines, I stop. This time I simply rubbed her ass to sooth it, then slapped her hard again. More whines, and "I don't like that." But you've been a bad girl, I tell her.

I spank her and alternately rub her ass another ten to fifteen times, each time giving her a good hard whack that makes her ass redden. I did not let emotions get the better of me at all. In fact, it was good for me.

Then I order her to remove her panties. Her pussy does feel wet, but then it pretty much always is wet for me. I shove two fingers in and rub her g-spot, while I continue to spank her from time to time.

And then I stop. Do you know why I spanked you, I ask. She protests, but I wasn't a bad girl. But you were, I tell her again, you were being bratty and trying to get my attention. I was? she asks meekly. Yes, but that's a good girl now. And we lay in bed and hug until we fall asleep.

Mother In Town

2011-04-11T10:41:00.000-07:00

My mother has been visiting since Wednesday of last week. She just left this morning. She is 85, and amazingly energetic and smart. She has not lost any of her smarts, in fact, or, apparently, any of her amazing energy either. She has been an inspiration to me.

I am also glad that, with my lizard, I have been able to re-establish my relationship with my mother. My ex-wife and mother hated each other. lizard is so sweet and wonderful that everyone loves her, so visits from mom are more comfortable now.

Having said that, I am glad she has left. lizard and I need our intimate time in the evenings and on the weekends, and since my father just died last year, I was trying to avoid too much affection with my lizard in front of my mother. We are typically all over each other, and still had lots of hugging and hand holding these last few days, but I was a little put-offish, and she understood why because I told her why.

My lizard has been purring at my side like a kitten, and needs my affection most desperately. She has told me "I love you" more times during the last few days than even she normally does, and when we have our few moments alone, she is very affectionate. She has also been acting up a little, but I know why. She even playfully slapped my face the other night, something she had never done before and which has not yet brought a reprisal, but I did not find it amusing and told her so. She also was acting bratty last night, kicking at the air like a little bratty girl and throwing her fists in the air like a little bratty girl, and then we both had a good laugh over that one. she needs me desperately. The other night she told me I had an amazing cock, I liked that.

She will get her punishment tonight for the slapping, then a good fucking.

Nipple Pulling

2011-04-08T09:23:00.001-07:00

Last night I tied my lizard's hands to the bedposts. then I gave her a foot massage. After massaging the right foot, I tied her right leg to the bedpost. Then on to the left. Afterward, we made out hot and heavy for a few minutes, me lying next to her. Then I kissed and rubbed her all over her body, then went down between her legs and blew on her cunt for a few minutes. She was wriggling.

I lay on top of her. We kept making out, and I pushed the head of my cock gently between her legs, not penetrating. She pushed down as much as she could, and began to beg me to fuck her. I continued to tease her with my cock head for as long as I could stand it. Next I moved my cock up to her mouth, and she sucked eagerly at it. I told her to open her throat for me and she did, letting the top of my cock slide down it.

I moved back to her pussy, placing the tip of my cock inside. I began to pull her nipple, and at the same time shoved my cock all the way inside her. She gasped in ecstasy at the feeling of my cock. She does not like pain, or at least until now I had never pushed her limits on pain. This time, as I pulled her nipple she began to whimper as usual. "My nipples are sensitive because my period is coming." I pulled my cock out and teased around the mouth of her vagina. "If you want my cock, you have to take it my way. I own you."

She meekly agreed to allow me back in on my terms, and I began to slowly pump my swollen cock in and out of her lovely sweet vagina as I pulled and yanked at her nipples. Within a few minutes, it seemed she had forgotten about the pain. "You're mine and I'll do what I like with you," I told her. I am becoming more and more aggressive with my Dominance of her as I realize more and more how much she will give me. Of course, I must use it with great care.

I pulled and squeezed her nipples harder than I ever had, while I continued to stroke my cock inside her, slowly increasing the rhythm as she began to pant and put her head back. I kept fucking her, pulling one nipple, then the other, until her face reddened and I could tell she was on the edge. I fucked her harder now, ready to bring her to orgasm, and calling her "my little slut," "my naughty girl," and things like that. Until she rushed right up to the edge and then, like water spilling over a dam, came with groaning ecstasy. then I pump harder until I, too, fill her hot cunt with my sticky cum.

As we lay in the afterglow of love, I softly tell her "bad girl." "No, I'm a good girl," she whispers. "Yes," I confirm, "you are a very good girl." She falls asleep like a little kitten laying on my chest. It still amazes me how my big (5' 9" D breasted) woman can be such a little kitten.

A Question For subs

2011-04-07T09:35:00.000-07:00

Predictability, spontaneity and fair warning. These are three terms I have been thinking about lately. I generally like to give my lizard fair warning when I am going to push her limits n some specific thing, like anal sex or swallowing my cum, things I know she dislikes. If I give her warning, and simply tell her a week or so advance that we will, for example, have anal sex in a week, she does not complain. If I tell her the same day, she may well refuse.

On the other hand, there are often times when during sex an idea comes to me. I want to flog her (which I only do lightly anyway and which she enjoys), or to tie her up, so I just go with it.

Then there are times when I give her detailed instructions for the evening, which I usually do on Wednesday nights, because that's when we have more time. The rest of the week I go to the gym.

So my question is, do you, as subs, like advance warning? When? Do you like predictability or sudden surprises, or a little of both?

I'm interested in hearing other points of view.

Vegas and Mother

2011-04-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

I have a fantasy about seeing my lizard molested by another woman. I don't fantasize about three way sex. I wouldn't want it. But I do fantasize about another woman pawing at, kissing and licking my lizard. I have told her about this fantasy, but she seems to have no interest.

Back in October of last year, lizard had a partial knee replacement. When we were at the hospital, a young rather attractive female medical assistant was hooking lizard up with the electrodes for an ECG before her surgery. She had to open her shirt to allow the technician to place the electrodes, some of which were put onto her upper breasts. I must admit that as I watched, my cock started shifting in my pants, even under the clinical circumstances of this little episode. I told her later that I had gotten excited, but she didn't seem to care.

Recently we were driving in our car with a friend of my lizard after watching the Black Swan. Her friend was saying how grossed out she was by the scene where the two woman are having oral sex (or fantasizing about it). lizard said she didn't think it was gross, and then laughingly told me she knew I liked it, to which I assented.

A month ago we went to Vegas (finally getting to the title of the post), and I told her to wear a sexy top, like the one in the picture. It was not exactly the same, but even a bit more revealing. My wife has 36 D awesome breasts, so they were poking out quite nicely. We went to a bar/dance floor. Immediately, a young (rather chubby) girl tried to dance with us, and told my wife she liked her breasts. Another woman was soon doing the same. We went to a second club, which was so crowded we could barely move. A rather hot looking young woman started moving in on her, but lizard turned away to face me every time. It was obvious the young woman, who was with her boyfriend, was interested in my lizard.

All of this, of course, turned me on quite a bit, which I shared with my lizard. She had no interest, however, in any of the women. She seems to be a chick magnet.

The mother part of my post is simply that I had a detailed set of instruction which I was going to e-mail my lizard for tonight. Wednesday is my day off from the gym so that's when I like to set up play time. My mother was supposed to come and visit on Thursday. She decided to come a day early. I love my mother and all, but....

Collars and Nipples and Rebellion

2011-04-05T08:43:00.001-07:00

I told my lizard I wanted her to wear her collar every night at 9:30 this week. She usually only puts it on when I specifically ask, but this week I want to have her wear it every night without being prompted. Last night she came into the room naked and wearing the collar. I gave her a long spanking, not especially hard as she is not a pain slut, but threw in some good hard whacks that mads her wince, then backed off with some more gentle slaps before giving her another good hard one. Though she whined a bit, she never told me to stop.

I put a cock ring on and we had good hard sex. I could feel the inside of her vagina better than usual with the cock ring. I don't wear one often but like to mix things up.

After she came I played with her nipples for a while. She kept putting her hand up to stop me, saying her nipples were too sensitive. I told her to move her hand and kept toying with them.

After I took her collar off, she pinched my nipple kind of hard. She laughed and said she was no longer my slave. We both had a good laugh.

It's nice that our dynamic is now becoming more routine. I liked her rebellious streak, though she rarely shows it. I think the hard spanking and the nipple pulling brought it out in her.

Deep Throat

2011-04-04T10:38:00.000-07:00

Beginning about a week ago, I told my lizard I would be fucking her throat until she nearly gagged. She gives great head, loves to lick my balls and shaft, sucks me deep inside her, but does not let me fuck her throat. As one of a series of adventures (more to come) I told her early during the week she would have to let my cockhead slide down her throat until she almost gagged. She actually handles things better when she has more notice (some things, at least, I know when I have to warn and when not to).

So Saturday night we were in Southern California at lizard's parent's house. Her parents are out of town so we had the house to ourselves. When we got to bed, I made her put on her collar, which I usually take when we are out of town. I rubbed her back and kissed her gently, then told her it was time for her to suck my cock. I told her she was mine, that I could do anything I wanted with her. "You're mine, my naughty slut, aren't you?"

"Yes, sir"

"I can do with you as I wish, isn't that right?"

"That's not fair. Before you told me you wouldn't make me do anything I didn't want to."

"Well, that's changed now, my sweetest. You must do as I say. And you will, won't you my little naughty girl, because you are so naughty?"

"Yes, sir..." she says meekly.

"Good girl. Now suck my cock."

She does so, licking my balls lovingly and up and down the shaft, sucking it into her mouth and bobbing her beautiful head up and down.

"Now take it down your throat as long as you can stand it."

She pushes further until the base of my cock is against her face and I can feel the head slipping down her throat. She bobs like that three times, then I hear her gag. I pull out.

"Good girl." I pet her head and she comes up to kiss me. "Keep sucking, darling," I tell her firmly. She goes back to her usual blow job routine. After a few minutes I tell her, "again." she obediently takes the whole thing in, sucking my cockhead down her throat, and bobbing her head up and down a couple of times until she begins to gag again. I pull out. "Such a good girl."

After a few more minutes of sucking, I have her take it all the way down one more time. This time she begins to gag right away, after one thrust. Enough.

I pull her up to me and we kiss. I cup my hand over her pussy without touching it. She is urgently in need of my cock inside her. I leave my hand there and tease her as we make out for fifteen minutes. "I need your cock sir." She is wiggling her pussy to try to make it touch my hand, but I keep it covered without allowing her the sensation of rubbing against it. My hand does not touch her pussy, but instead is cupped over it so she can't rub against anything.

"Beg me," I tell her. "Please sir, please, I want your hard cock inside me."

"Because you are such a naughty little slut," I tell her. Finally after a few more minutes of teasing, I tell her, "I'm going to fuck you good now, my naughty little slut."

As I enter her she gasps. I thrust all the way inside. "I own you, my little angel," I tell her.

As I thrust in and out, I continue to tell her nasty things. "You're a little cock slut, aren't you my angel?"

"Yes, sir," she gasps out. Her breathing get s harder, a sign of things to come. "You are such a good little slut, aren't you my dear?" "Oh yes, sir, yes!"

When she finally reaches her orgasm, it is loud and wet and long, and she shivers and moans, over and over, as I thrust hard into her, not fast, but each thrust definitive and commanding. I fill her wet pussy with my meat each time, and she moans and gasps and flings her head back and forth. I don't last much longer and my aching cock squirts inside her as well, making a sticky wet messy puddle on the bed.

When we are done, she tells me, "your cock felt so big." This is the second time she has told me that in the last two weeks, but more on that in a later post.

I am pushing her limits as far as and further than I have ever pushed them before, and she still does not resist. She is enjoying our sex life more and more. We have a growing intimacy that is directly related, I am sure, to the intensity of our lovemaking and role playing during sex. She still, however, does not talk about the whole dynamic, and has no interest in anything that has to do with why our sex is so good. She just lets me control the situation and simply enjoys the ride.

I have a lot to blog about this week and in the coming weeks. i already have three other topics planned, and we are going to have two tasks this week that I'll be blogging about. I'm in high gear.

A Rare Weekend Post

2011-04-02T14:52:00.000-07:00

I have had family in town so didn't have a chance to post about some recent escapades. Wednesday night was very good, involving a skimpy outfit, some spanking and some flogging. Tonight is one of lizard's challenge nights. I told her I want her to take my cock all the way down her throat until she gags. I'm looking forward to blogging about it Monday.

Hacking and Other Thoughts

2011-03-29T14:08:00.000-07:00

My computer got hacked by bad guys so I was lost for a few days, but here I am again.

Not much to report in the way of sex. This weekend I will have my beautiful lizard suck my cock down her throat until she almost gags. I will tell her that's what I want this weekend. Then the next weekend, I will ask her to be my sex slave for the entire day, probably Saturday, and make herself available to me on request. The next demand I will have will be to suck my cum down her throat. Then I have an idea of fucking her pussy with a dildo while she sucks my cock. so all that is coming in the next few weeks.

We were at a party the other night with three other couples, all friends of ours. the subject of blow jobs came up. One friend was complaining that he never got blow jobs form his wife. His wife, who is Iranian American, said half jokingly, "they don't believe in that in my country." We all got a good laugh (except her husband who had been the one complaining). Another woman laughingly told us how she would promise her husband a blow job if he would do certain chores around the house, but even though he did the chores, she would not give him the reward. She was laughing and telling us how she had strung him along that way for seventeen years. the husband, who was there the whole time listening, stuck his arm out stiffly and said I have a list of chores as long as my arm. He had good humor about it at least, and they seemed very loving.

Gee, I complain because my wife won't suck my cum down her throat every time I fuck her face with my cock. I guess I should count my blessings. She has been a little testy lately, though, in one of her less submissive moods, which is bound to happen. I can live with that, as I know she will be back purring in my arms soon enough.

A Different Tone

2011-03-24T10:25:00.000-07:00

I swear, I don't know what got into me last night, but I was just really horny, and she looked so intoxicating in that outfit. She was wearing a one piece crotchless outfit with a half bra, similar to the one shown above, but with half cups so her nipples were hanging out. She had on sexy stockings. Beautiful lizard. (By the way, check out Flirty or Dirty if you haven't before. It's my favorite place to shop.)

I tied her up on her stomach, tying her hands to the bed posts, and kissed her all over her back, on her arms, her ass cheeks, which I also blew on, then spanked. I spanked them hard and she winced a bit.

I turned her over and tied her arms again. I put the blindfold on her. She looked so damn sexy in her little outfit with no crotch. Now don't get me wrong, I'm used to seeing my lizard in those skimpy sexy lacy things. She wears them whenever I want her to. She picked this one out earlier because I told her to pick an outfit--she usually wants me to do that, but I didn't have time last night.

And then I manhandled her amazing tits, slapped at them, pulled on the nipples and made her wince. She is not a pain slut, but she is my slut. I put my cock in her and fucked her roughly. "I own you," I tell her. "Say it." "You own me, sir." "What are you?" "Your slut sir."

I take my cock out and as if to prove the point, put it in her mouth. She hates tasting her own pussy, but she is my slut and will do it for me. She puts it halfway in. I tell her "more", and she meekly complies, sucking as much as she can in without gagging. I fuck her face for a few minutes, then pull my cock out and shove it back in her juicy hot cunt, and straddle my little slut while I slap and grab at her tits. Still I fuck her with finesse, push her to the edge of orgasm, then....

Her head bangs the headboard! Ouch. And so much for her orgasm. I pull her body down away from the headboard, and continue to have my way with her, pawing like a desperate animal at her tits and thrusting my cock hard now into her sperm hole. Soon my cum is ready to fill her fuckhole, and I sohot my load deep inside her, then another, and then another.

Too bad about her orgasm. She'll get one next time.

What Would You Say If Your Dom Told You Tonight Was Your Night?

2011-03-23T09:06:00.001-07:00

Yesterday morning, I told my lizard tonight was her night to do whatever she wanted (in bed). I asked her what would you like. To all the submissive readers I have, what would you answer?

lizard? She wanted a foot massage! Which I give her two or three times a month anyway when she is a good girl, so she really wasn't asking for much. After the foot massage we went to bed, and I asked her what she would like to do. She said "I don't care." So I asked, "would you like me to spank you?" "Yes sir," she answered.

I had given her the reins, so to speak, and complete control, but she had nothing to request.

Since I know she is entirely happy with vanilla sex, I ended up giving her a very light spanking, then we had rather vanilla (though still entirely intense) sex. After we started making out, she moved her mouth down to my cock rather quickly. "You admire my cock, don't you my love?" "Yes, sir," she said quietly, then started sucking and licking it in her very wonderful way. God she is good at cock sucking. But I resisted the temptation to swat her ass or shove her head down on my cock, or even request her to deep throat me, which I usually do when she sucks my cock. I didn't ask her to lick my balls (which are shaved--and she loves to lick and suck too). I just let her do her thing, and when she was done, I mounted her gently, pushed my cock all the way inside her, and fucked her, simple and passionate.

She came first, as always, and I kept thrusting in to her for another ten minutes, then finally shot my hot seed inside her and collapsed on top of her.

I was surprised that she called me sir since she has never done so before unless she was wearing her collar. This time it was unprompted, so sort of a first. I was also surprised by how little input she has into our lovemaking. I am much more in control of things than I even realize.

Tonight I will probably tie her up and kiss her all over to drive her as wild as I can before fucking her good. Hope to blog again tomorrow.

Looks like I may be back. To blogging that is. At least for now.

Orgasm Denial

2011-03-22T10:47:00.000-07:00

My lizard hates orgasm denial, or even orgasm delay. Last night I told her not to cum until I gave her permission. She obediently waited. When I finally told her to cum, she did, and it seemed to last for at least a minute. But afterward I asked her how it was, and she said she didn't have a very good orgasm, that it just "slipped out," is how she put it. Normally when I just let her go, she has a fairly quick and powerful orgasm (though only one--it takes her at least 1/2 an hour to recharge).

Does anyone else have this experience?

The First in a Series: Anal Sex

2011-03-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

This weekend was the first in a series of challenges I will be giving my lizard over the course of the next few months. This weekend was anal sex.

I deprived her of sex for a week, very unusual for us, because I had hoped she would cum for me while my cock was in her ass, and I wanted to maximize the chance of that happening.

On Saturday morning I reminded her we would be having anal sex. She said it wasn't fair that I was going to get to cum, and she wasn't. I didn't really know what to say to her, but simply told her it was my night, not hers. And that she was right, it wasn't fair.

During the day Saturday, I was tingling with excitement because anal sex is a real treat for me. She, on the other hand, was an anal virgin until she met me. I have fucked her ass three times in three years. It is nice to know I'm the only one who has been there. When I called her my angel during the day, she joked with me about being a devil. We laughed. She was whiny during the day because she wanted hers too. A couple of times she mock punched me like an angry little kid might do, and then we both laughed without saying anything because we both knew why she doing it.

Saturday night I told her to get undressed while I showered. I told her to wear her collar too. We started to make out, and I put two fingers on her clit and began rubbing it between them. I pushed a finger inside her cunt and rubbed her g-spot for a few minutes. Then I got the KY Jelly out. She was one unhappy camper. I think she still had a last minute hope that I would succumb to her request. I wouldn't. Yet, although I could feel her disappointment, she said nothing, resigned to her fate.

I was careful to use my clean hand to rub her clit, as I lubed her ass with my other finger. Then I lubed my rock hard cock, which was by now aching for her backdoor. We got into a spooning position, and I slowly worked the head of my cock up her ass. I toyed with her clit as I worked the first third of my cock into her tight hole. Then I inserted a finger into her pussy. It was difficult reaching around and playing with her g-spot, and she was entirely uncomfortable. I let my cock rest inside her trying to stretch out that tight hole, and in the meantime rubbed her g-spot. I could feel my cockhead trying to burst through her vaginal wall, and the feel of my fingers on my cock and my cock in her ass was driving me wild.

Then I slowly worked my cock in and out. She was quiet throughout, and lay there like a good girl. I still had my finger inside her, and could feel the tip of my cock rubbing against it. Soon my cock felt like it was going to burst. She had told me earlier she didn't want me to cum in her ass, but I told her I would anyway. As I pumped back and forth very slowly, the tip of my cock began to almost burn with anticipation. I could practically feel the semen pooling up and getting ready to shoot. This was a very different sensation than even the most sensual fuck. My fingers inside her fuckhole were driving me ever crazier, because I could feel the pressure on my cockhead and it is an incredible sensation.

I still moved in and out slowly, deliberately, not wanting to hurt my angel any more than necessary for me to have my selfish pleasure. It also excited me that she knew I was doing this purely for my own pleasure, and yet was agreeing with me only for that reason. I would have liked it if it had been good for her, too, but I knew she wasn't liking it. My little broken angel.

I told her so, too, and told her she was very naughty for letting me fuck her ass. As I moved in and out I told her several times, "you are a naughtly little slut, aren't you my dear?" And she answered yes, sir.

Then I could hold back no longer and I felt a jet of cum squirting through my cock. Because her ass was so tight I could literally feel it squirting through the tube, and jetting into her ass. Then a second spurt, and another. I couldn't really count, but it was probably three or four strong and intense streams of cum. I could feel the warm fluid around my cock, and dribbling from her ass as well.

Soon afterward, I pulled out her rubber dildo and inserted it into her vagina. Although she could not cum for me when I was in her ass, she came within a minute afterward, so she must have at least felt some excitement from the ass fucking, though overall I don't think she liked it. Once I stuck the rubber cock inside her, she came quickly, and came long and strong and we kissed and I held my poor baby tight in my arms and stroked her hair. She hugged tightly too.

On Sunday we made love in the morning (I had showered the night before), and again in the afternoon. I had to strap her arms down in the afternoon to get exited enough to cum inside her hot wet pussy.

My lizard is such a sweet gentle angel. Even though she complained immediately after our anal sex session that her ass hurt, she only complained once, and didn't say anything the next day.

I wish it would feel good for her and I will keep working on it, but I don't see her ever coming around on this one.

Next weekend I have another devious plan for her. I want to shove my whole cock down her throat until she almost gags. She loves sucking on my cock, and licking my shaved balls. She almost worships it. I have told her before to suck it all in and she has always done so. This time, however, I will have her deep throat me for longer until it becomes uncomfortable.

I am a very bad master indeed.

A Good Ass Fucking

2011-03-18T10:14:00.000-07:00

My lizard has been working hard all week. she owns properties and she is painting and fixing up one of them. Still she will get a good ass fucking on Saturday, one of three for this year. The second will be in June. Tonight I will stretch her ass out with two fingers to loosen her up. She doesn't like being ass fucked but does it because I am such a good husband.

I still have a number of other devious things planned for her in the upcoming weeks.

Quick Ass Update

2011-03-15T09:22:00.001-07:00

Yesterday my lizard had a very difficult day and was somewhat stressed about a number of things. So I knew she needed gentle handling. We took a nice long bath in our six foot tub, then went to bed. She was quite relaxed, too relaxed after her long hard day, but we started to make out. I got the KY Gel out, which gave her a good idea of where my finger was headed on day three. I had told her several times before that I was going to put my cock in her ass on March 19, so she already knew, but when I picked up the KY she asked tenderly, "what's that for?"

"I'm going to put my finger in your ass, dear, to stretch out for this Saturday."

She: "I don't feel like it tonight."

Me: "I know, my beautiful angel, but we have to stretch you out."

She: "Well, don't use too much gel because it gets all over."

Me: "That's fine dear."

She: "You can't put your cock all the way up me."

Me: "I will if I want to, my precious love, but I won't hurt you."

She: "Yes, sir."

And then the lubricated finger goes up the ass as we continue to make out, and I leave it there for a few minutes.

Afterward, I spank her lightly for a while, then shove her head down into the bed as I fuck the crack in her ass (no anal insertion) until I come all over her back.

She can't have vaginal sex until I fuck her ass, because I want to see if I can make her cum by playing with her clitoris whit my cock in her ass.

Anal Prep

2011-03-14T10:59:00.001-07:00

I am getting my lizard ready for our big night of anal sex. Since this is our third year of marriage, I get to take her three times up the ass this year. We are planning the big event on March 19 (the first of three), and in preparation, I have been sticking my index finger up her ass the last two nights to stretch her out as we make out. She takes it like a kitten. Purrr. And she hates anal sex, because it is dirty. But no complaints so far. Wednesday it goes to two fingers.

I will keep you up to date as the big night approaches.

Good Days

2011-02-17T14:51:00.000-08:00

These last two night and days have been interesting.

On Monday night I was talking to my friend, call him Hank. Four couples are going to Las Vegas. they guys are all driving together, and the girls are driving together in a separate car. I told Hank we would be taking my wife's Lexus, and that we needed one more car. As I was on the phone, lizard (my wife) was sitting near me. I was telling Hank I thought we should take the Lexus because it is big and roomy. My wife was in the background saying loudly, "you're not taking my car and drinking and driving, you're not going to smoke in my car," (I don't smoke but some of the other men do), "I don't want you going to jail," and other similar comments, loud enough for Hank to hear her. When I hung up with him, I told her I was very unhappy about her behavior.

We went to watch the news later and I was very quiet. I rarely get upset with my lizard, but her behavior annoyed me. She can tell me privately what she would like me to do or not like me to do and when can discuss it. It is unusual for her to be demanding like that, especially when others are around. As we sat on the couch she asked if I was upset with her. Yes, I told her calmly. "I don't want you to be upset with me," she said, and tried to snuggle against me.

"Pull your pants down," I ordered. She did, and sat over my lap obediently. I spanked her ass harder than usual. She didn't complain. Her ass began to turn red. "Pull then all the way down," i ordered. She did so. I continued spanking her hard until she finally used her safe word. Her cheeks were red. I pushed my finger up her cunt and it was wet.

I led her into the room, still without kissing her, and tied her hands above her head, and tied her legs to the bedposts, spread out. I gently brushed my lips against hers, against her nipples, and against her cunt, then kissed her hard on the mouth. I kissed and pulled at her nipples, and roughly handled her breasts. I kissed her all the way down her torso. Then I started working on her inner thighs. Keep in mind, we had not had sex for about a week, a long time for us, because I had a cold (that may be why she was cranky to begin with). lizard worse nightmare is orgasm denial, and she wanted me so bad already.

I continued to tease and kiss around her cunt, then finally cupped my hand over it as I kissed her mouth. "I want you inside me," she pleaded. "Say it right," I command. "Please sir, I want you inside me," she begs. "Say it dirty," I tell her. "I want you to fuck me, please sir." "good girl."

As she is bucking up her hips, I suck her labia into my mouth without touching her clit. I kiss all around her puckering wet fuckhole, then finally take two fingers and rub the hood of her clit gently, slowly, increasing her pent up desire. "Please fuck me, sir," she whines. I continue to play with her clit, then finally plant one long tongue kiss on her vagina, working from bottom to top, as her juice drips down her thighs.

I lick and suck at her clitoris until she is near coming. "You can't come yet," I tell her. She knows.

Finally, after twenty minutes of this torture, I plant my body on top of hers, and slide the head of my cock into her pussy. she is pushing back as hard as she can with the restraints, but I slide back out again. "Tell me who you are." "I'm your slave sir," she says desperately. "Your my slut," I tell her, "say it," I'm your slut, sir," she softly purrs.

I push my cockhead back into her swollen opening, and she responds by trying to swallow as much of it as she can.

Finally, I shove my whole cock in her, filling her hot wet hole with my cock, the cock she longs for, the cock she worships. And I pull out very slowly. Then back in again, a long hard stroke, grabbing her hair and pushing her face down into the bed, grabbing her tits roughly and treating her like my fucktoy. I slowly start to increase the rhythm, and finally begin to slam hard into her with a series of quick urgent thrusts. "Come for me, slut," I yell at her. She immediately starts to orgasm, moaning wildly for what seems like minutes, her whole body heaving with orgasmic lust. And then I shoot my load inside her, three, four hots jets of my sticky cum inside her already slimy wet hole, filling her with my seed that spills out down her thighs as we collapse into a pile of spent energy.

And then there was Tuesday. Yesterday I told her I didn't want her to wear any underwear. It was our third anniversary. She said "you can't be serious." "I am," I told her. She says, "I don't have to if I don't want too." "You do have to," I tell her. and she complies. When I see her at lunch, I push my hand down the front of her pants and feel her wet pussy. "Good girl," I tell her.

Then when we had sex last night, she wore her collar as she always does now, and sucked and licked at my cock and balls like the little worshipping slut she is. She truly loves my cock. She waited to have her orgasm until I told her to like a good girl. The more control I take, the more she loves me. Other than the fact that I am too busy to think (because of work) things are great!

My Lizard's Education

2011-01-24T10:14:00.000-08:00

This weekend I finally showed my lizard some literature on Dominance and submission. I have talked to her about it before, and she wears her collar when I ask her to without even knowing anything about the lifestyle, and she is very submissive in bed.

I wasn't sure how she would react to seeing something more formal because she doesn't like talking about sexual issues, she gets very embarrassed. And her reaction was not surprising. She asked "why are you showing me this?" I told her I want you to see that I didn't just make this whole thing up. I told her I want you to submit to me. She was absolutely not interested in the article. It was a fairly vanilla description of the lifestyle, and, to the extent I understand this lifestyle, a fairly accurate article as well. She just didn't care about it. She wasn't turned off or negative about it, and she certainly didn't get excited about it. Just totally disinterested. But that's my lizard. She's a funny one.

I have also bought a video on being a sensual dominant (Nina Hartley), and when the time is right I'll show it to her.

The Best Laid Plans...

2011-01-11T09:20:00.000-08:00

Well, last night I was disappointed to have my lizard refuse me for the first time in a while. She wouldn't swallow.

In all fairness, I have told her in the past that she has the right to refuse any command before she puts her collar on, and last night she told me she did not want to swallow my cum. I will not force her to do anything she does not want to do, since she has never agreed to a carte blanche relationship, though I urge her to from time to time. She simply does not have that level of submission. I have told her in the past I will never force her to do anything she refuses to do, and I will honor that commitment (of course!).

Anyway, we still had a red hot night of cock sucking. I told her to wear a slutty red dress that I bought her a while ago and her collar, and started by lying on the bed in my sexiest underpants while she played with my cock until it got hard. then I ordered her to strip them off.

She began sucking my nipples and biting them gently, then worked her way down to my stiff member. I told her to lick from under my balls up the shaft, and she did so obediently. She licked and sucked at my cock for a while, as I just sat back and relaxed all my muscles and nerves and gently stroked her hair.

I did command her to take my whole cock in her mouth/throat a couple of times.

Afterward, I cuffed her and had her lie on her stomach. I straddled her face as I had done the night before, and she sucked away at my cock some more while I spanked her ass. She winced a few times to express her pain, and I eased up each time. Then I pulled out our flogger and spanked her ass with that a few times as she continued to take my cock in her mouth, and to lick up and down the shaft, and to suck both my balls into her mouth (I shave my balls for that reason).

Next, I tied her on her back with two silk ties to the bedposts, and spanked her pussy lightly several times. No cock for her tonight though. This is my turn. I blindfolded her as well. then I straddled her chest and as I played roughly with her boobs, I fucked her mouth with my hard cock. I kept fucking her for several minutes, then gave her a short rest while we kissed and mixed our tongues together. Then I mounted her again and started fucking her face harder. Though she would not let me cum in her mouth (it gags her, she says, and I have to live with that, though I will never totally give up, as she has let me cum in her mouth a few times), she never complained either about the hard spankings or my cock filling her mouth for so long. As I heated up and got close to spraying my load, I fucked her mouth a little harder to finish myself off. then I pulled out just before I shot my hot load, and squirted onto her chest, her neck, her chin and her cheeks, spraying several loads of hot sticky cum and my beloved.

Afterward, I asked her if she was horny, and she politely answered "yes sir." I told her we would take care of her another day!

So considering when we entered into this relationship we had no agreements at all, because I had not yet discovered this Dominant side of myself, I have still cum a long way, I would say. I am very lucky she goes as far as she does, she is a great lover and I have no complaints, but, on the other hand, I am persistent and don't give up easily.

We have also been working on opening up her back door as well, another area where she initially refused but has been compliant, at least to the extent of allowing my finger up her ass.

So, sorry to disappoint. I will eat more pineapple and hope for the best!

An E-Mail To My Girl

2011-01-10T10:13:00.000-08:00

My dearest sweetest lizard:

Tonight I want you to wear a sexy outfit. I will pick it for you if you want. I want you to put your collar on by ten o’clock, and then I want you to ask me, “what would you like from me, sir?” I am going to tie you up and fuck your mouth with my hard cock.

I am going to give you fair warning now—I will cum in your mouth tonight. You don’t need to swallow if you don’t want to, but I will cum in your mouth tonight, my sweet lover.

Business As Usual?

2011-01-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

Last night my lizard and I had what has become a typical night, which is actually a sign of how much progress we have made. The night was not outrageous, so for those of you who are more committed, shall we say, you may find my adventures somewhat mundane.

After showering, I tell my lizard to put her collar on. She does so readily. Afterward I tell her to lay in the bed on her stomach, and I handcuff her hands above her head. As I pull the blankets off her to spank her, she complains of being cold. I asked if she wants to turn the heater on, and she declines. So then I start spanking her lovely bare ass, not hard, because she is not into pain. I move my body around so I am straddling her face, and reach over her back to continue slapping her ass as I push my now hard cock into her mouth. As she licks and sucks at my cock I continued to reach over her back and slap her ass, a little harder now.

"Suck it all the way down," I tell her. She replies the best she can with a hard cock deep in her mouth, "yes sir." I push all the way in and hold my cock in her throat for a few seconds, then slide back out. "Suck my balls," I command. She does so willingly, sucking them both into her mouth at once. Then she licks and sucks at my hard cock a few more minutes. I spank her all the while.

"Turn over," I command her. She rolls over, and I pull her body down so now her hands are cuffed above her head. I try to shove my cock inside her, but I cannot get entry. I push my hand between her legs and open her wet crack so I can slide my cock deep inside her. I tell her not to cum until she asks for my permission. "Yes sir," she answers. I begin to slide now, deep thrusts inside her while I press my body against her big soft breasts. As I work up a sweat, her breathing gets harder. Soon she asks, "can I cum?" "Excuse me?," I ask back. "May I cum please sir," she repeats, this time correctly. "Good girl," I say. Then "not yet my love," I tell her gently, and I slow down my thrusts.

I take off her collar now. I want to be able to press my hand gently against her throat. I thrust my cock back inside her, deeply, then pull her body down even further so I am penetrating deep inside her hot wet womb. I fuck her good while I hold my hand gently on her throat, and begin to press ever so slightly, a little more each moment, until her breathing gets labored. I tell her "you may cum when you wish, dearest." She is now at her crucial point, her face flushing red, her breathing hard because she is ready to cum, and because I am holding her throat, still not pressing too hard. She feels a perfect sensation beginning to course through her whole hot body and she yells out in excitement. As she does so, I press down on her throat even harder and fuck her hard with my last few thrusts, both of us cumming in a sloppy hot wet mess, my cum splashing ever so deeply inside her womb, as she continues to yell out the best she can in ecstasy.

And then we collapse. We kiss gently, and I lay on top of her with my still hard cock feeling the lovely hot juices all around, as my cum slowly drips out of her. She tells me, "you are such a great lover." Sigh. She is a beautiful and wonderful woman, with a perfect body and a sweet gentle face, and the moment is so perfect I don't want it to end, so we lay there like that for about ten minutes, my cock slowly shrinking inside her.

And that, my friends, is the story of how far I have traveled on this strange path of TTWD. May all your nights be as wonderful!

A Fine Morning

2010-12-27T14:36:00.000-08:00

This morning was a fine morning. I woke up feeling very horny, but my lizard and I have not had sex for a couple weeks now because we think she is going through menopause, and has had a slow bleed for the last three weeks. Anyway, my cock was hard and ready when I woke up. I grabbed the hair at the back of her head, woke her up and started kissing her. I slapped her face lightly a few times and slapped her breasts too. Then we held each other tightly for a while. I could feel her breasts pressed up against my chest. She took my nipple in her mouth and bit it. I always like that.

When I'm with my lizard I feel comforted. I don't know if that's healthy or not, but when we lie in bed together, I just have a sense of invulnerability that I get nowhere else.

Anyway, that's how I feel as I push my body up hers, so that my pointed cock is now between her breasts, feeling those large and warm globes surround my hard member. I am leaving little pre-cum trails between her awesome tits, and I push her down further so my cock now points straight at her mouth. Like a good sleepy girl, she takes it into her mouth and lets the head push against the back of her throat. Ah, what a sweet feeling to have your cock sucked lovingly at 7 am. I thought about mouse and Omega and how they have blogged about mouse sleeping with Omega's cock in her mouth, and thought that, too, sounded lovely.

My lizard continues to suck me down as I hold the back of her head, not forcing this time, as I do when I want to, but letting her control how much he wants. But it's not long before I command her to take my whole cock down her throat, and she does, but then has to take it out to keep from gagging.

Soon I had my cock between her breasts again, and rubbed between them until I shot several hot loads between her tits.

Such a sweetheart.

An Increasingly Rare Entry

2010-12-23T10:04:00.000-08:00

The main reason I have not blogged much lately is because there has been little to blog about. My luscious lizard and I are doing great. Lately I have told her I want her to wear her collar every night when we get into bed, that will continue for a month. She continues to be a little pussycat in bed. I have been pushing a finger up her well-lubed anus the last couple of times, and tonight I plan on having her suck my cock and deep throat me until I come.

So things are going well, but there just hasn't been any real new fronts opening up. The only new thing we have tried is I tied a cloth gag around her mouth the other night as I spanked her sweet ass (she was handcuffed as well, laying on her tummy with her hands above her head tied to a post). I took the gag off when I fucked her, and shoved a finger up her ass. I pulled the finger out just as she came.

I have also been incredibly busy and focused at work, trying to make enough money to pay off a rather obnoxious IRS debt that I accrued with my spendthrift x-wife. My lizard is a great money manager.

I bought lizard some Japanese silk rope as one of her gifts. Hopefully that will give me something to write about!

Merry Christmas to all!

It's Been A While

2010-11-12T14:33:00.000-08:00

I haven't had much to blog about lately. My lizard and I are doing great--she wears her collar whenever I ask her to, though she still never volunteers to wear it. I am still working on getting her to agree to be my full time submissive. As of now, it is still confined to the bedroom. She definitely does not like pain, and when I spank her too hard she complains. Usually I stop but occasionally I tell her that's too bad and swat her a few more good ones. She developed her cock sucking talents during the last month, and can now deep throat me quite well. I still have not worked on cumming in her mouth--that will be saved for Cock Sucking Month II. This month we are working on wearing sexy outfits, in the bedroom and in public, and wearing no underwear in public. She is always such a good little girl when I tell her what to do.

Cock Sucking Month

2010-10-18T09:51:00.000-07:00

My nefarious plan is paying off. After focusing on cock sucking this month, I have had some wonderful nights with my lizard. Last night we tread on some slightly new ground, so I wanted to share with everybody.

Last night I gave my lizard a one hour massage (always a good way to start). It's something I do for her once a month or so. Last night it was a reward for her being a very good girl on Friday. Digressing just for a moment, on Friday I had e-mailed her to tell her to dress in a sexy outfit and serve my dinner when I came home from the gym, and to put her collar on before I got home, and then to treat me as the master for the evening, and she did an excellent job. I handcuffed her laying on her tummy across the bed with her hands above her head, and spanked her too. Then we had awesome sex.

But last night I tried something new. After the massage, I showered. I asked her of she wanted to wear her collar. "If you want me to," she said. "I don't care if you do or not, but I want to know if you want to wear it." Nervous laughing. "Whatever you want," she says. "I don't care one way or the other," I tell her. Then she says, "yes, I want to wear it."

Then I tell her to lay on the bed on her stomach. I handcuff her arms behind her back. I tie her legs together and pull them up, tying them to the handcuffs to hog tie her. I have never done that to her before. She seems to like it.

As she lays there helplessly on her stomach, I begin to spank her sweet ass. My spanks slowly get more forceful. Then I turn my body so my head is facing her feet, and my cock is up against her mouth. I had originally thought of gagging her, which I will be doing soon enough, but then decide, since October is cock sucking month, to use my cock as a gag instead.

As I push my cock into her mouth, I continued to spank her ass. She takes my cock in all the way, opening her throat as she has done for me only since this month, the past few times. When she does this, I tell her "you're such a good girl," and things like that. It encourages her. "You know how to make your daddy's cock hard." My cock is resting against the back of her throat for a few seconds, pressing all the way in, then pulling slowly out. I do not want to cum yet. In the meantime, I make her say things to me while my cock is in her throat. "Do you like sucking your daddy's cock?" "Yes, sir," she obediently answered through the gag of my cock. "Why are you so wet?" "Because you make me wet, sir." Mmmmmm.

Her pussy is, in fact, soaking wet, dripping down her legs as it was on Friday night as well, and making a small stain on the fresh bedsheets. She really seems to get off on being humiliated and spanked. I have some further plans to humiliate her in the future, but those are still a ways off. I am working very slowly. Very slowly.

So I keep spanking her while I shove my cock into her throat. And then when I am ready, I take her. I fuck her hard from behind while she is still tied up. She moans and gasps. She wants to come so bad, but I know she won't in this position, so I keep fucking her from behind, pounding her hard, until my cock is ready to explode.

Then I untie her legs and free her hands from the restraints, and I roll her over, then push up inside her in a very traditional and vanilla way, pressing my body hard against hers. I push her head down against the pillows. "Be a good girl and come for your daddy," I tell her. she is turning red, as she does before she comes, and breathing hard now. I know it is close. "C'mon girl, be a good little girl, daddy wants you to come." And soon she does, oh boy does she cum, she bursts out yelling with a heaving orgasm and keeps gasping and yelling in a wild explosion, so much so that it gets my cock all the more ready, and I shoot hot spurts of gooey cum inside her as she groans and yells out again and again.

And then we collapse.

And life is beautiful. I'm still thinking about her incredible sexual prowess this morning, and she also told me after sex that I was incredibly good--she is really liking the path we are on, whatever you want to call it!

Collar

2010-10-07T16:17:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted for a while because I've been quite busy, and also because I've lost interest in the subject somewhat as I slow down my attempts to bring my lizard to her knees, so to speak. October is cock sucking month, where I am asking her to suck me every night--something she almost always enjoys doing anyway.

But what I really wanted to recount was an interesting episode that happened two weekends ago. We went out of town and I brought the flogger and the feather tickler with me. I am slowly easing her into a number of different devious practices, most of which we have done at least once before, but some of which she has indicated she does not like. At any rate, I am introducing one by one the deviant practices, and this month happens to be cocksucking month (not yet swallowing, that comes later).

So when I pulled out my toys, she asked me, "where's the collar?" This rather surprised me, because even though I know she kind of likes wearing it for me, she has never asked to wear it and has never asked or even talked about it before. I could tyell from the way she asked she was a little disappointed that I hadn't brought it. Alas, it is not yet collar time, that will be coming soon my dears.

So not much to report and not much time to report it, but I will continue posting as things heat up and we get into the more uncharted territories (meaning probably toward the beginning of next year, I am a very patient man).

Feathers and Floggers

2010-09-20T13:43:00.000-07:00

I started on a new journey about two months ago. I went back to square one, and have not been pushing my wife's limits too much lately based on the following. My wife took a written poll I gave her and answered on a scale of 1 to 10 what things she liked that we have done, and what things she didn't like. She responded by giving many of the items a 10.

I started off on a very vanilla foot, with the only "kinky" addition being light spankings, the kind she gave a 10 to. Then after a month (about two weeks ago), I added the flogger, which she also gave a 10 too. Yesterday, I added in the feather tickler, another 10 on her survey. So I am slowly bringing her around from vanilla back to kinky after having virtually stopped all kinky behavior at one point. My plan is to add in the rest of the 10s first, then slowly start adding in the ones she gave lower rankings to until I get to the lowest rankings--I cum in her mouth (a "1") and anal sex and anal beads (her only "0" on the survey).

Last night, I had her wear a sexy pair of Lola Luna underwear. Since we have both been dieting the past three weeks (I'm down to 183 at 5'11", and she is 5'9" and weighs 160, but doesn't look fat). I spanked her, then flogged her between the legs and on her breasts, then tickled her body and pussy with the feather tickler. I tickled her pussy as I spanked her. When she was nice and wet I mounted her and fucked her hard, telling her not to cum without my permission. Then I pulled out when she asked for permission and flogged her again on the pussy. Afterward, I mounted her again and fucked her until we both came together.

She also wore her collar last night, which I really dig. It looks great on her. I have her call me sir when she is wearing the collar, though I still have to remind her, almost every time.

Puking and an Anniversary

2010-09-08T13:59:00.000-07:00

I was off work yesterday because this weekend my lizard had a surprise 50th wedding anniversary for her parents, and all her brothers and sisters came. One brother has four kids. They were all sick with a stomach flu, so of course I got it, and so did my poor lizard. Missed work yesterday. This was after I was just getting over a cold. We were both bedded down all day yesterday, but not in a fun way.

Now everything is back to normal. I had been giving her regular spankings, but not since she was sick (ain't I a gentleman?). Now its time to pull out the flogger and add regular floggings for the next two weeks.

I've also been dealing with the relentless boredom of a job I have been doing too long but which I have to keep doing at least until I pay off a large IRS debt I amassed after my divorce from my ex, which is larger than the GDP of many small countries. The debt is that large, not my ex.

The Collar

2010-09-03T09:31:00.000-07:00

My lizard's collar arrived yesterday. I like it. She tried it on and it fit her just fine. I'll try to post a picture of it soon. She is on her period which is down time for us. We used to have sex during her period but I like to take a week so we can both appreciate each other all the more the rest of the month (and we do!). If I get too horny she will always suck my cock until I cum (though not in her mouth--yet), or I'll come between her large breasts. Depending on my mood. I usually prefer to wait, though.

I had to put her collar away because we have family coming this weekend anyway, so the period is actually well timed this month.

My lizard has been rather rebellious of late. This morning, though, I spanked her a few times as she lay in bed naked, after I was dressed for work, including my tie and everything, and after about five spanks I walked off. She lazily said, "mmmm, that felt good."

Now that's the image I'll have on my horny mind all day.

Reina's Task

2010-08-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

I wanted to say thanks to Reina (or Carrie) for being such a good sport and doing a good job of journalling about her experience on Friday. I look forward to another collaboration in the future!

Sorry I can't post a naked picture of Carrie here, but this is the only one I have of her!