Back on Spank

This weekend I decided I would give my wife a good spanking. She is in recovery from her knee surgery, and as any regular reader knows, we just started on this journey in July of last year and it has evolved in different ways since then. Since her knee surgery, lizard has been wanting lots of old fashioned hugs and caresses.

I decided Saturday night we would venture back into my territory, the Land of Spank. So I pulled her pants down and told her I was going to spank her. She really does like a good spanking, I quickly realized. She waggles her ass when I spank her, in her playful and defiant way. After a mild spanking, we made out and bit each other and had great sex.

On Sunday I gave her another round, but this time I ramped it up. After giving her a nice message, I started to gently spank her. I got the KY jelly out and rubbed it on her asshole. She asked why I was doing that, and I told her I liked too.

So I rubbed around her asshole, and kept smacking her ass. I asked her if she liked it, and she said yes, and I could tell she really did. I asked if she liked it more than a massage, and she said, well they are both different. I smacker her harder. I kept ramping up slowly until I was actually spanking her as hard as I thought she could take, then I spanked a little harder. We do have a safe word, but she never used it. Then I stuck two fingers in her pussy and paid on her while she lay on her stomach. I rubbed my cockhead up against her asshole, and pushed a little. Just as I could feel the tip of my cockhead enter her ass, I pushed it up so it would slip between her butt cheeks instead of ramming up her glory hole.

I kept that up for a few minutes as I played with her pussy with two fingers. Do you want me to cum, she asked. I told her yes, and started spanking again. I swatter her hard a couple more times and she began to have a very intense orgasm. After she came, I pushed my cock between her butt cheeks and rubbed until I came too.

What was fun about last night was that I got right back to where I was in terms of spanking, and as I guessed, my control is also back on the rise. She told me I could do anything I want with her, and, in fact, at one point she invited me to slip my cockhead in her asshole. I barely pushed it in, though, when she said that's enough. So that's when I went to slipping just the tiniest part of the head into her anus, then slipping it out and rubbing between her cheeks.

Soon I;ll be ready to break out the book I bought of spanking erotica, maybe I'll give it to her as a Christmas gift! Any thoughts on that?

Round and Round

So I asked myself if I am going to start over, what would be the best way to do that? And I answered myself, self, look back on your earliest entries to see where you were back in August. And I realized by reading those early entries, I have learned so much from my earlier trials, and gained so much in my confidence that I really haven't taken that big of a backward step as a result of lizard's knee surgery. Tonight, I intend to start my lizard back on a regular regimen of spankings, which I have come to believe are the roots of the Dominant tree, in the sense that by exercising my authority as I wish in that area, I begin to reassert my Domination.

I will report back tomorrow on how the spanking goes tonight. She is still recovering from her knee surgery, so I plan to be gentle with her.

A Giant Step Backward!

My poor lizard is still recovering, very slowly, from her knee surgery. In the meantime, my ex-wife has sued me for palimony, a California concoction to allow cohabitants to sue for unspecified damages. I lived with my ex for 15 years before we got married, and now she is asking for one half my income for the rest of my life. We were in trial on the case, but a mistrial was declared, so now we are resetting the trial date, $35000 woth of attorney's fees later. The long and short of it is that this has been a very emotional time for both of us--we both need each others' support.

In the meantime, our sex life has suffered, although our rock solid relationship is stronger than ever. We did have sex last night, and I threw in a few hiney smacks, but they just didn't feel like they did before. Her knee is still stiff (as was my cock), and she can't bend it very far and we have to be very gentle with it. Although I can still express my dominance physically, when I brought up the subject of "you have to do whatever I ask," her response this time was, "I thought we were equals." I am sure it is an expression of her present state of vulnerability, but it was, I must admit, a bit disappointing. I hope Patience will visit me and stay around for an extended vacation, because I can see this is going to be a long, slow process trying to get back to where I was before the operation.

Thankfully, looking at the part of the glass that is half full or the silver lining around the dull bleak cloud, I can see how far I had progressed with my lizard before the storm hit us. I will get back there, for two reasons. One, I have seen her true nature. Two, I have a huge amount of love and respect for the woman.

One other note, she has been using her little girl voice a lot lately, the pouty-I-need-lots-of-sympathy-love-respect-and-hugs face that she usually spares only for a few rare moments of self-pity. For the time being, it seems to be ascendant. Thus, my new role is caregiver for the time being, for an unknown time into the future.

I don't consider this a setback, really, but it is a giant step backward.

I am glad I have this community to share with...

Slaving to my Slave

Things are weird around the house because my poor baby has a recovering knee and has been ordering me around. Well, not exactly ordering me, but there are things she has difficulty doing on her own, so I spent the weekend helping get this pill or fill the ice bag, or, in short, feeling like her slave. Of course, I do this willingly (though the little voice in my head is still screamed til it got a sore throat) because I know my baby needs it right now. She is still hobbling around after her knee surgery, and I want to help her in any way I can.

But being in this situation has made me realize two things. One, that when she is well, my lizard does a hell of a lot of stuff for me that I don't even think about. She is, in that sense, very willing to serve me in aalmoist any way I desire. I didn't realize until she was down all the things she did for me when she was up (kind of like how you don't realize how much junk you have accumulated until you move). Second, I realized how little she really demands of me when she is well. As I move slowly toward Domming, I was a bit oversensitive to the few little demands she made on me before her surgery.

Yesterday, we were shopping at a clothing store and she said she would have to call me a bad name for something I did. I told her "if you call me a bad name, I will have to spank you." I told her that several times in the store. At one point, a nearby man looked up and smiled and said "that sounds like a plan." lizard shot back to him, "my husband wants me to act bad so he can spank me." I was surprised she was so forward and unembarrassed about it.

Last night, before we went to sleep, we were talking about sex (we haven't had it in a while because of her knee, but stay tuned). I asked her, "what is your job in bed?" She said, "to do anything you want." "That's true," I said, "but your job is to please me." "Yes," she said, "I know." "You must please me by doing whatever I want." And she agreed.

We talked a little about spanking. I asked her if she missed it. She said yes, because she misses me touching her. But then I insisted, "but do you miss the spanking by itself?" "Yes," she said. And we joked about her calling me master. Still too early for that.

As she begins her recovery, I will continue to help her out as much as she needs. A did give her a couple light spankings over the last few days, but we have a long way to go to get back.

New Knees Is Good Knees

My beautiful lizard had knee surgery on October 22, 2009. She has been recovering since and I am caring for the poor dear. It feels weird to have to take care of her since she is usually the one who cares for me. She is doing great, I am happy to say. I haven't been able to blog lately and there hasn't been much excitement around our house lately. Last night I got a blow job out of the blue at 4:30 in the morning though, even though the poor thing can barely use her leg. Luckily she didn't get a mouth surgery.

A Few New Advances

I am quite pleased with my lizard. She has been very obedient both in and out of the bedroom lately. I love her madly!

I have three new reports. Two of them relate to a hot sex session on Tuesday night.

First, we were hugging and rubbing and passionately kissing. I was being very gentle, carressing my sweet lover and rubbing my hands everywhere, sliding my fingers over her clitoris. I asked her if she wanted to be spanked. She replied if you want too, yes. I said, no, I don't care, I'm just asking if you want to be spanked. Yes I do, she said. I am thinking of telling her no more spankings unless she asks for it, at least for a while, to push her further and to see what happens.

Second, as we were making out and our passion was flaring, I started reaching for something on the dresser top. What are you doing, she asked. I'm getting KY Jelly to rub it on your asshole, I tell her. Then I ask, is that ok? Again, she historically frowned upon anal play, so I wanted to force her to approve. And she did, simply saying yes. I lubed her ass and shoved my cock in her pussy as I reamed her asshole with my finger. Her eventual orgasm lasted over a minute!

I have yet to reach a limit with her that is inflexible. I will keep pushing her and keep reporting back.

The last tidbit I want to share is I recently bought the erotic short story anthology called "Spanked.". I'm guessing some of you are familiar with it. lizard and I have read a few erotic stories together before, but none involving spanking. After the book arrives I will let you know how she responds.

Titty Slapping and the Consequences of Consent

A little background for those of you who aren't regular readers. I am still fairly new at this journey, and my wife has never consented to be a complete submissive, though we have taken steps to get there. I had what I called "slave night," back in July and August. My wife told me she did not mind doing slave night, but that it was for me, not for her, so I stopped the slave nights because I'm not doing this for selfish reasons, I want us both to grow closer and enjoy the trip. We recently agreed on a safe word, but she has not used it to date.

Yesterday, Sunday, we were driving home from her daughter's house, and I asked my lizard if she would do whatever I wanted in the evening (Sunday night). I told her "it's not slave night, it's beautiful lizard night!" And told her how she was so sexy and beautiful that she turned me on and so I wanted her to consent to allowing me to do what I wanted. She laughed, recognizing my obvious semantic ploy (changing the name from "slave night" to "beautiful woman" night, which I did, btw, at the suggestion of several readers). She asked, what are you planning to do? I told her whatever I want, I'm not going to tell you that, you just have to trust me. She asked again, but what are you planning to do? I said you either have to agree or not, I won't tell you. Later on, not right then, she said yes. (!)

So in the evening I told her I wanted her to pick one of the excellent and sexy outfits I bought her. She chose the outfit in the picture at the top of this post, though that is not a picture of my wife. She looks much better in it, with her firm plump tits sticking out over top the half bra. The outfit is crotchless, too, so I really enjoy it. Good chioce, lizard!

I lit candels and put a romantic classical music cd on, and we started making out passionately. I asked her, what can I do to you? She said I like it when you lick and kiss my back. I said, no, what am I allowed to do to you? She said, anything you want. Tell me again, I commanded. You can do anything you want to me. Thank you.

I turned her on her stomach, and because I knew she wanted it, I licked, kissed and gently bit her back as I started to smack her ass. I then told her to turn over, and I gently massaged her feet. As I was doing so, I told her to put her fingers on her pussy and rub it. So I massaged her feet as she massaged her pussy. I want you to imagine my cock is inside you, pushing hard up inside your hot wet pussy, I tell her. She begins to grind her hips against her fingers, and keeps rubbing, as I rub her feet through her stockings.

After a while I turn her back on her back, and slap her ass a little more, this time reaching between her legs after every few slaps to insert my finger into her pussy through the crotchless panties. She is gyrating her ass around in circles now, desperate to feel my cock thrusting inside her. Each time I push my finger in her sopping pussy, she gasps. So totally wet. Dripping down her thighs. I want your cock, she pleads. You can't have it yet, I say gently. I know, she responds. Good lizard.

I keep smacking her ass, rubbing the backs of her legs and rubbing her back in between, inserting a finger in her hot wet pussy from time to time. Then I roll her on her back. At the suggestion of one of my readers (nilla), I start to smack her tittes. Not hard, at first very very gently. She moans. I smack a little harder, moving from one tit to the next, pulling and tweaking her nipples gently in between smacks. After every smack I give the tit a nice firm but friendly squeeze. She moans and starts to push her pussy up in the air. I push my finger in her juicy hole and make her suck her own pussy juice off my finger. I know she does not like this, but she takes my finger anyway. I do it again for reinforcement, but only two times. I want to be in charge, but not to spoil her mood by making her continue to do something she doesn't like. I slap her tittes a few more times as she keeps moaning and thrusting her hips, I put my cock right up to her tits, rubbing my hard pole in between them as I reach down and squeeze and slap them. Then I push her head down, grabbing the back of her hair and forcing her mouth onto my cock.

She sucks willingly, lovingly, licking up and down the shaft, plunging onto it like a hungry animal, pushing it into her cheeks, then licking the head gently until I push her mouth back onto it, a few times pushing hard enough to almost choke her, but again being very careful not to ruin the mood. I tell her lick my balls. I have just shaved them, and she is an expert at licking and sucking them. Then she goes down below my balls and above my anus, she licks and rubs, while caressing my balls until she goes back to licking them again. I tell her to suck my cock again, and she does so, obeying every command like a good subbie.

I have had enough now, too, so I push her on her back and mount her. I push my cock all the way up inside her and hold it there. She gasps and moans and is gyrating against my hard-on. I pull slowly all the way out, thrust in again. Another moan, another gasp. I grab the KY jelly. What are you doing, she asks. For your asshole, I tell her. I begin to rub two fingers on her asshole, then insert the tip of one of them to push up on the back of her vaginal wall. I put my hand on her face and push the left side of her face, so the right side sinks into the pillow. I push it hard enough to let her know I am in charge. This always excites her. I grab a little hair as well at the back of her head, again just to let her know, not to hurt her. She is so wet, I haven't felt her pussy like this for quite some time. I know she will not last long, but honestly, neither will I. We are both in a frenzy of wild animalistic lust, and I start my hard fuck thrusts to push her over the edge. She comes rather quickly, heatedly, in a wild moaning climax which pushes me to the edge as well, and my hot seed spills out into her waiting fuckhole.

Afterwards, as we are lying in bed, I ask her if there was anything she did not like. She answers meekly, I don't like sucking your finger after you put it in my pussy. I know, I tell her, but you have to do it anyway. And she leans against me lovingly as I feel our combined juices that have run down her ass crack onto the bed. I gently rub the sticky fluid around her asshole and we both lay there and relax.